Hey guys😊
So a little about myself
I grew up in the care system from an early age due to being sexually abused. I know how the trauma can impact on your life and you feel so alone and it can turn into anxiety, trust issues, self harming, blaming yourself and self loathing. I’ve been through it all! Not only did I have anger issues and used to lash out at the people around me who was trying to help I also lashed out at myself for the situation I was in, I went through a phase of heavy drinking to try and block things out but it just made things worse, the depression got worse, the emotional outbursts became more frequent.
I was diagnosed with EUPD and GAD, the worse was I blamed myself for all my relation breakdowns and that caused the GAD, I didn’t have a trigger like most anxiety I could just be sat watching tv at home and would start to panic, feel dizzy, sweat and light headed.
I’m telling you my story so you know your not alone, there are people who you can talk to and who will listen, who will help guide you, support you and not give up on you. I could have gone down a different path with my anger but I realised that yes they took my past and yes I had certain issues I needed to deal with but nobody was going to take my future! It took me a while to believe in myself again and gain back my confidence, it’s about baby steps not running before you can walk. Remover that even when there is darkness there is always stars to light your way back. I’ve been through so much at a young age and I can say I’ve never had family support I had to find support from other sources, I used to think that people wasn’t listening to me and that nobody really cared, but I cared so if I care then I’d find someone who would also.
That’s my story so if your reading this and you feel you want to talk or you feel alone know that your not!! And I care 💕