One thing I feel very hopeful about right now is.....
Getting better physically and mentally
Learning to love me again. Become healthier mentally with self care, positive thinking and taking it one day at a time.
I hope that it will work out - just doing what I need to do, various things for my life, even if I do them automatically without enthusiasm and creative energy.
I am hopeful that I will be able to get past all the things that are stressing me out right now. Just stressful days. Not a stressful life.
My Japan visa approval.
That I treat customers better at work. I've been irritable lately and they don't deserve that. I hope to use better coping strategies when I find myself feeling irritated.
I'm feeling hopeful that I will learn how to adjust to having a job and get better at my time-management and getting everything I want done.
The possibility that I can become a better functioning person with the help of therapy, support groups, self improvement classes, and self care skills.
Wishin you all the best @TeenyTinyAppy 
Just remind yourself that it won't come overnight but you will get there! 
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That I can have a more loving relationship with my immediate family.
nothing at all. fuck this world fuck everything it's always the same conclusion imfucking hogtied strung the hell out with so much pain crumbling suffering ad infinitum there is no relief there is no fucking love for me my heart is shattered i just wish i were dead i will never be special never never never
@hollowman84 I read your profile bio and I seriously mean this with the utmost honesty that you seem like an incredibly interesting dude.
I'm honestly in a huge slump myself, got fired from my first job 2 years ago that I thought would be a career and now I'm just flopping from job to job like a fish out of water, and this incredibly painful experience is made worse by my anxiety and deppression.
However, corny as it is, all who wander are not lost.
I love history and one of the things that inspires me most is the battle of Stalingrad in World War 2. The Soviet Union in the beginning of the war was getting their asses kicked by the Nazis across all of Russia. The Russians ended up nearly defeated, but put every single thing they had into the Battle of Stalingrad. It was a HORRENDOUSLY bloody and vicious war, but the Soviet Union came out on top and it was a turning point in the war, and they eventually ended the war victorious.
Right now, this is our battle of Stalingrad, it's incredibly ugly and unspeakably vicious, and we're on the brink of defeat, but if we put every last amount of effort into getting past it, we will end up victorious.
We must never give up.
@AllenA22 thank u so much for reaching out and being compassionate. it means a lot. and i find your analogy with battle of stalingrad. in fact, interestingly enough, i have been to stalingrad (now volgograd) when I lived in Russia about 6 years ago. I still remember exploring the large hill where so many Russians lost their lives, it is a memorial seeped in blood and so much tragic death, and the motherland calls statue was very impressive as well.
@AllenA22 and no-- it's not corny at all the tolkien quote that 'not all who wander are lost.' i used to have a poster with that quote on the wall in my classroom when i was a teacher... before i quit last year. still seeking recovery from that and a new job. i feel like wasted pathetic garbage. im so lonely and sad and i feel cut off from the world and dead inside. every day is monotonous and pointless. i feel stuck. no hope. nothing to give me guidance. i feel very lost without any wandering. just lost and immobilized. not moving. not going anywhere. not feeling any better. not knowing what the fuck to do with myself
@hollowman84 oh boy can I relate. I won't pretend to understand how it feels to be in your specific situation, but I will tell you I myself feel lost, immobile, and utterly screwed as well. I feel so embarrassed that I'm just stumbling around in life right now, and I'm self conscious about what my peers think. To me, that's insanely cool you got to live in Russia. That's also interesting that you used to be a teacher, must have been an interesting experience, but now it seems like that's behind and you'll be on your way to a new experience. But yeah man, this life literally kills, what makes me feel better though too is to think about how much better I still have it than others. I'm not in the war torn middle East surrounded by the noise of bombs and air strikes, I'm not in a North Korean slave labor camp, I don't have stage 4 cancer, nor facing a divorce after 20 something years of marriage like my old boss, I'm not freezing cold, nor do I work in one of those Chinese sweat shops where they have suicide nets installed outside because the work is so bad it drives people to throw themselves out of the Windows, I wasn't found guilty of a murder I didn't commit, I'm not on a u-boat on its way to Omaha beach heading into certain death on D-day, and you can certainly add as many more things as you want. Sorry about my winded responses, I'm just very passionate because I know exactly how you feel.
@AllenA22 no no, don't apologize for the length of your responses, i'm all about winded answers myself. I appreciate that a lot. And yes, there really is a lot to appreciate about life when you think about how much worse things can be-- and it's almost always far far far worse that it could be. I remember how I felt after reading Solzhenitzyn's A Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich, the story of one day in the life of a prisoner in a gulag, based on the author's own experience. It definitely gave me a better perspective of how little I really have to complain about in the grand scheme of things. People face far greater challenges every day than I think I probably ever will. It's definitely an important step to find gratitude for what we have, appreciate the opportunities we have to try making our situation better, and remembering that things could be much, much worse-- so much worse on a level that hopefully we'll never even have to think about for ourselves.
