Looking for Long Term Listener
So I think I did this before but because my life has loads of ups and downs and the last several months have been just a downward spiral...I'm seeking a longterm listener.
Who I am: Recent college graduate who has faced setbacks academically/career wise in the last year and will be starting a masters program in the fall. Has been struggling with depression and anxiety for several years but has been professionally diagnosed for only 1.5 years. The depression and anxiety flip-flop with each other- usually in times of high stress I'm more anxious, and times of low stress I'm depressed. I have been seeing a psychaitrist (though I had to switch psychaitrists due to my original one moving offices) and during the school year I try to go to a therapist that the school provides. However, the problem with this is the fact that these are all scheduled visits-which means I could be perfectly fine when the visit happens but absolutely miserable between the visits. My family and friends to say the least are kind of the worst when it comes to empathy and mental health issues, so my feelings of isolation are pretty extreme right now. I also struggle with issues of self-worth/self-esteem, along with suicidal ideation (never actually carried it out but for the last 14 years it has been a constant struggle).
What I need: Someone who is ACTUALLY A GOOD LISTENER...I've struggled with listeners in the past because for the most part a lot of them were not a good fit for me. I really loathe overly positive people, those who rush to conclusions, and generic platitudes because it just sounds like you're being lazy and not listening and just doing this job to pat yourself on the back. I know that theoretically there is the whole advanced search option but it makes me kind of feel awkward tbh (I don't know why but it just does). make pretty wordy messages (as you can tell based on the size of this post) and have a cynical sense of humor. I cuss a lot...probably won't do it at you but just about life and other people. I'm from the U.S. and live under the Central Standard Time zone so ideally someone from that region is a plus (and obviously speaks English).
So that's pretty much it, for now...hopefully this thread finds me someone who is good because I'm running out of options.
