Looking for supportive friend and listener

Hello there.

I would like someone to talk to who is supportive. I have a long history of anxiety and depression. The thing about me is that in real life I am the person everyone always turns to, but I don't feel I have anyone.

I try very hard to grow, and put in the effort to overcome my issues, but there are times when all my efforts fail. And I spiral. That is when I need you. Someone to not judge, or be harsh or give my then horrible inner voice more fuel. Sometimes I know it will appear that the outside event is "nothing", and not a big deal. But the external thing for me was enough. More importantly, this is me visiting an old place where what I need is compassion, understanding, lack of judgement. Things that I effortlessly show others, but in that moment am unable to show myself.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.