Seeking a long-term listener

Im looking for a long-term listener. I struggle with MDD, chronic illness, and weight problems. My husband of 9 years is unable to keep a job. He has been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder and formerly generalized anxiety disorder. I resigned from a long term position in September 2016 because of my struggles with suspected fibromyalgia (no definite diagnosis, but my doctors best guess). So now we live with my father and stepmother. I tried to go back to work twice in 2017 — once at a desk job where I developed new health issues and had to resign, and once at a restaurant where I worked myself into physical exhaustion and had to quit because of my pain and inability to recover from illnesses. We have a brilliant 7 year old son and Im hoping to better myself so I can be a much better mother. I do the best I can, but chronic illness and depression often prevent me from successful functioning. I understand I will have to be the one to push through and find a job with enough income to support us to get out of our situation but it is hard to find such a career in my hometown and I have no money to move. I also resent my husband for his inability to work, especially since I have been ill. Most days I struggle to get out of bed, riddled with pain, depression, and fear. I have no money for therapy and my insurance covered therapy takes months to make an appointment and then months in between appointments so Im reaching out online.