Another vent... again.

So... in the previous safe space I was there on di scord, I got cut and brushed off by others when I express my intense emotions such as rage, hostility, hatred, frustration and resentment, but my these intense emotions weren't out of maliciousness or spitefulness, it was due to the exhaustion of being unheard, unsupported and having almost no friends at all. I even know these people but they cut me off ok, due to the way how I express my pain? :(

And I... ALSO FREAKING DESPISE when my vulnerabilities were misunderstood and weaponized as "aggression and guilt-tripping". This is another gaslighting or DARVO tactic if you ask me, and I hate it when someone does this.

I may have also said things out of anger, such as "I'm done with y'all, goodbye and I hope I never come back" and "😒" to someone. I never mean to do it alright? I genuinely feel remorse for my actions and I know this was wrong, I just was under a lot of pain or am genuinely hurt because I know I got betrayed by a lot of people who used to be my allies/friends in the previous community I was there where I got harassed badly, and for how I don't have true friends yet nobody seemed to understand me about that...