2024 November Stay STUCK in my own Muck OR FIGHT like never before!
I HAVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM AGAIN.
I've made progress in 2024 but here towards the end of the year, trials and tribulations have me feeling impotent and useless once again. This rock bottom is not the same rock bottom as a year or two ago. I know from my accomplishments this rock bottom can be approached with some extra advantages. With that said, ROCK BOTTOM is ROCK BOTTOM regardless of what you have or what you don't have. Rock bottom makes you feel impotent and useless.
(I am grateful and give thanks for all of my blessings)
BEEN STUCK IN THIS EPISODE OF MY OWN MUCK FOR TOO LONG AND I'M TIRED OF IT!
TIME TO FIGHT AGAIN! (Fight or give up..... my choice..... my results)
This is my November fight.
Family Relations, Nephew intrusion into my space.... Started as an asset but quickly turned negative.... TRY TO SAVE a positve spin to it. Holiday Communications. Keep equipment repaired to make money. Make money.
All feels hopeless, futile and disparing.
Where is the sunshine after all of last years hard work and progress?
Maybe my December post will feel more fruitful.
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Today this Friday and I had a talk with my nephew on the phone and we just can't get on the same page with all the assets that I have.
With the property I own and the equipment that I own with the back *** and dump trucks we can build a pretty good tourism place right here.
But sadly my nephew missed the part about having to work the back *** business to make money for the tourist business and he just wanted to jump in on all the fun stuff when in reality we got a year's worth of hard work to save up money for the tourist business.
He's over 49 years old so there's no excuse of young exuberance.
This development has been a huge blow to my psyche at a time that I was already down and out. I hate to say it but I even have a fear that he might steal from me. Another relative that told me he stole from his mother so now I have to put in inside cameras. I would've never expected it but now how things have developed, I don't know how he's gonna make money when he moves down here so that is becoming a real concern.
OK for today I gotta get motivated and get going.
My mind is so cloudy with negative energy, worry, doubt and uncertainty...... That I am getting lost in my own head, just trying to get dressed.
I'm absorbing this and pushing forward.
@IsayUncle Hey I hope you don't mind. Take a deep breath ok? Take a few more if you need to. You've got this. You're strong and able and you've got a really good head on your shoulders. It just starts with one step forward. What is top priority? *sending you good vibes to chase away the worry*
@mytwistedsoul
Thanks Twist..... I've about lost it.
I have to recover my core balance items.... all the things of necessity on a daily/weekly agenda.
I had that covered a couple months back but slowly it has deteriorated into a non obligatory pattern. I must regain my core balance in addition to maintaining all of other life's balances.
But my first goal is to regain my core balance items in addition to being out the door ready by 6:00 AM.
I wanna call myself names but I know any progress is good so vacuuming floors right now is a good thing to do. 11:45am
Just clean the lousy kitchen..... 438pm
clean the bed room. 530pm
511am... be out the door ready by 615am (no where needed to be)... just get ready!
so many directions to go....
research and purchase mini cameras.... 45 minutes (620am)
@IsayUncle Hi!
I understand the feeling! I have struggled with many issues that make me feel like I failed. But like you, having some success, I know I have done better, which means you can continue improving in the areas you are working on! It's like going up steps. You are doing it! Holidays are so tough sometimes. I will follow your post to see how you are doing. You are not alone, I promise!
@GetHeardNow
Thanks, I'm ok, just crying in my beer.
Reduced to living one sentance at a time.... my brains fluidity option has quit working. 😁
Thanks for commenting. I hope you have a great weekend.😃
Sometimes that's all you can do. You just need to be heard and get it out. I completely understand that. Hopefully that helps you as you move forward. Something has worked for you.
I saved several youtube videos on cameras and watched them while working in the kitchen and folding laundry.
I have a few more to watch (while doing other tasks)..... I got a wealth of useful information.
My gut is filled with anxiety this morning but I am making progress. I'm anxious about a decision I have to make as I finish a few household chores.
Do I wanna run errands in town or go work on my backho to finish that repair. Both projects are an hour drive away and then of course the time do the projects.
Or am I gonna cop out on both just keep trying to work around the house?
It's 9:15 AM, I'll continue some household chores right now.
already losing focus, purpose and motivation..... from minutes ago.
1 hour.... just push. 920am