Confused

I wrote two posts a couple weeks ago explaining what is going on with my S.O. In summary, my parents control everything, they don’t get along with my SO. They wanted me to end things with my SO and I lied to them and told them that I did but we were still dating in secret. I know the situation is hard on him too even though he is a lot tougher than me, but we got into a fight and he told me he was tired of living a lie. He gave me an ultimatum to either stand up tk my parents or we’re done. I told him I have stood up to them in the past and I’m working on setting boundaries with them.

We got into another fight where he thought I was being selfish because I wanted to do something nice for our two year anniversary, and he just wanted to stay home and watch the World Cup. I know him and I don’t believe he planned a surprise even though that’s what he said. He told me he needed space, he didn’t want to speak to me until I grew the **** up, and that we were done until I worked on me and my problems. We didn’t talk for a whole day, and it felt like forever it hurt me so much. I kept checking to see if he was on snap to text him but I didn’t text him because I wanted to respect his wishes.

He made an account on here and looked at the posts I have made about the situation and asked to meet and talk. But I am so hurt by the things he said. He claims to have misspoke and meant he wanted to break up with my parents. But the way he texted it to me was our relationship was done. He apologized many many times and says he misspoke and still wants to be with me. but I don’t know if we can be the same after this or even recover fully from this. I love him, he’s my best friend, but just thinking about our future and this is what it’s going to be like, that if we fight he’s just not going to speak to me and ask for space. I told him I can’t forgive him that easily and I need time. When we text he acts like everything is fine but there’s just a part of me that’s still so upset about this and I don’t know what to do or how to feel