I lost hope in humanity

With all this war going on with Ukraine.

I am just done.

My bigoted abusive father is thinking of sending me to the army deapite the fact he's "considering" of focusing on helping work towards my dreams and keeping "close contact" towards me and completely having no idea he's supporting a degenerate in office along with other degenerates in offices.

I haven't even come out of the closet to say that i'm Omnisexual questioning my gender identity and a human being struggling to cling to life and humanity itself.

Now to come to think of it, i just don't know if there's a way to make myself disappear from the society i've now grown to hate with all the judgemental and the debauchery going on to the world. Including with the wars that are going on and the fact there's nothing you can do about it but to just watch and the news media bastards narrate your life.

I'm just trying to find a point in life where i found my redemption arc and a point where i can put all the trauma behind me for good.

I can't even go towards the community even Discord that is been welcoming to me. My friends that are grown to become my family without the saddest events that are inevitable of what i want to do to help.

It's just hurts to go on without wanting to punch a brick wall or having a severe heart ache without violently crying in my rests. I just don't know if i'll be the same with all the events going on towards humanity.

All i just wanted ia to find a redemption arc in my life.

All i just wanted is to let the past die.

All i just wanted ia to let the past die.