I feel like hate myself, I don't feel like I belong on earth. When I think about my future suicide always seems to be the end. How can I live when I hate who I am?

I guess the "hating myself" part is the source of the outcome you envision. It is not easy. but if you try to start seeing what you did right and not judging yourself as harshly as others have judged you, then another outcome is possible. It is not easy when all our lives people hurled insults at us and gave us anger instead of love. We cannot change the past, but we can start treating ourselves as the beloved child we always wanted to be. When we are stuck in a deep emptiness, what holds us back from trying? For me when I am in the dark places I find things that comfort me like healthy food, changing the sheets on my bed and going to bed early, sleeping enough so I am rested but not falling into sleeping to escape. A listener on 7cups can help if you are not in crisis already. If you are, there are many crisis resources and you are free to return to build your life with resources here at 7cups as you move past crisis and reinvent yourself.

you know, you are part of the universe, and the universe loves you as you are precious to the universe.... you are so much greater than you see yourself... we all tend to only focus on our negatives as we are our worst critics/ judges.... if you focus on your postives, such as good qualities, traits, skills, talents, good deeds, etc you will feel better about yoruself... but remember you need to learn how to love yourself unconditionally warts, and all so to speak b4 anyone else can..... you are dearly loved, don't forget, start doing nice things for yoruself and take care of yourself as you would want another to do for your