I’m embarrassed because I accidentally said I wanted to commit suicide and didn’t mean it now I’m really embarrassed and the other girl said it’s fine but I’m paranoid. Thoughts?

I think you should take a step back and think about what you are really feeling. Did you really not mean what you said or not want to mean what you said because suicidal thoughts can be a sensitive subject? Shame is a common feeling when admitting that you have feelings of suicide. I recommend that you think about what is important right now. Is this person's opinion of you worth the amount of stress you are putting on yourself? Its easy to make assumptions about what the other person is feeling based on what you are seeing from them or interpreting from their body language or tone of voice. She said it was fine, and she might really mean it. You might not feel it is fine though. Can you put yourself in her shoes? What if she told you she wanted to commit suicide and then backtracked and said she didn't mean it? Would you say its fine even thought you didn't mean? Suicide is a hard topic to joke about for some people, and maybe she is worried that you were serious about what you said.

Take a breath. You do not need to feel embarrassed. There is something that is disturbing you and that thought made you say something as drastic as wanting to commit suicide. It is great that you shared it with someone and now that you are composed you are feeling odd that you even said such a thing. It would be a good idea to talk to a therapist at 7 cups. No need of feeling embarrassed it will clear any doubts and you may gain some insights on the reason such a thought came to you. There is no stigma attached we all feel low at some point in our lives and the best thing to do is to get some expert advice and be clear of it.