I'm to scared to see a therapist after traumatic psych hospitalization experience. What steps can I take to get out of this loop?

I have also found that as a trauma survivor, it is was hard to take the first step to speak to a therapist. One of the great things about therapy is that it is a controlled environment. By this, I mean that you are in total control of your session with the therapist. You can decide what you wish to discuss and what you don't want to discuss. One of the best parts is if you decide you want to discuss something with your therapist but then you change your mind, you have the power to end that conversation. Unless you pose a threat to yourself or others, your therapist will respect your boundaries when you wish to end your conversation on a topic. One of the best things as a trauma survivor going into therapy is that you are in total control of the situation. This is a liberating feeling because of the past experience where you were not the one in control of what was going on. I know that taking the first step to reach out and seek help can be very overwhelming. One of the things that helped me to overcome my fear was outlining goals for therapy. Before each session I would write own what I wished to discuss and how much detail I wished to discuss it in. The best thing about therapy is that there is no right/wrong way to go about it!

Know that one experience is one experience. What happened can be scary and leave you with negative thoughts and feelings towards mental health professionals, but take control and do your own research. Call around and interview some therapists. Tell them your experience and why you have reservations about reaching out. Listen to your gut, and trust it. No 2 therapists are the same, therefore no 2 experiences will be the same. If you know you need some further help and guidance with your traumatic healing, you deserve to have it.. feeling safe and supported with a therapist you can openly speak to and trust. Don’t give up, just take back the control of your health and do what feels right and safe for you

First, know that your concerns are valid. It can be scary to open up to others. I recommend meeting with several therapists to find the one that is the right fit for you. When seeking a professionals help, it is somewhat like finding a friend, in that not everyone is for you. You should ask the therapist questions to see if they have experience with the concerns that you want to address and overall, see if your personalities mesh, and if you feel comfortable opening up to them. Also, your needs may change over time. So try to be open to the fact that what fits you right now might evolve over time.