Why do I keep thinking about cutting when I haven't cut in years?
Last Updated: 08/18/2020 at 1:43am
Maryna Svitasheva, PhD. RP
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Cutting is always at the back of your mind once you've done it / tried it - it's an addiction and you think back to it constantly.
Your brain still craves it. See, when you cut your brain released endorphins. These endorphins are like adrenaline. Your brain acknowledges that feeling as something good. Every time you self harm that endorphin is released. That is why over a period of time you might do more self harm, or a different type. Your brain craves the feeling. Your brain is addicted to the feeling. So its like a drug. After you stop, you are still going to want it. No matter what. But it gets easier to ignore. And it does go away to the point you don't even notice it.
Cutting is a coping mechanism that helps alleviate some emotional pain you are feeling in the short term. Whether you are thinking about it or actually doing it, cutting is a sign that something else is bothering you and you need to address it as soon as possible.
Because it was a part of you, once. And so it will always be a part of you. That doesn't mean you have to relapse, or anything like that. It's almost like scar tissue, its a sign of something that has healed, but will always be there. A sign of your strength.
It's kind of addicition. You can't completely stop thinking about it because you remember how well you felt when you were cutting, you remember that in that moment you forgot about everything. And now even if you haven't cut in years you still can see the decision of your problems in self harm. You should always find alternatives and fight with the thought of self harm. You are strong, I believe in you
It might be because something happened which triggered it. Do you have any recent events which might have awoken this urge something traumatic or eventful? Then you need to face this even and try to work positively with it.
For some people that thought will be in the back of your mind for a very long time, thats okay! The fact you havnt cut for years is a very very strong thing to have done!
Cutting could have been something you used to manage stress. It is not a healthy tactic, but maybe you are feeling stressed and it is triggering thoughts of self harm.
Cutting is a hard habit to break; its addictive and you can sometimes believe it’s your only way of escapism. Once you start, even if you haven’t relapsed in years, the triggers can still be difficult to ignore. Control is also a huge part of self harm - you can do what you want on your own terms. When everything seems to be out of your control, cutting can be the only thing that is in your power. Even though urges are so tempting, cutting is not healthy! The scars are regrettable and the physical pain DOES NOT take away the emotional pain. Alternatives: breathing techniques, drawing where you feel the urge to cut, tearing up paper, reading a book, listening to music, throwing away all of your self harm equipment. It is easier said than done, but once you’re there, there is no need to look back! It can be done, and I’m proud of you all.
When cutting becomes a habit, it's hard to stop, and when you stop a habit, you have to replace it. But sometimes you sink back and want to fall back into you're habit. When you start having these thoughts, try to distract your self from the thoughts. You can draw or write or think about what you want for dinner. Stay strong
Since you have done it before it is in your consiousness. You have cut yourself because you wanted to escape from a situation. So it is normal to still get reminded of that, maybe because you feel the same way you felt or maybe because that was the only solution at those times and your brain still thinks its a solution.
It's like a addiction and even though you stopped cutting a long ago, it's still in you. Thoughts like that can't be gone forever but they can be controled.
Cutting is usually a coping strategy. Could it be a sign to you that something is bothering you? That you need to deal with something?
it can become an addiction or a regular urge after you feel a certain way even after a long time..
I have been a cutter before. There are far too many on my arms. However, it is an impulse decision, not depression
Because e feel that is the only way to get the attention of people,also it becomes a habit when our emotions are weak
The thought of cutting never really goes away, it's like remaining sober. But you're sober from cutting for the years you've quit. As long as you remember how it felt or why you did it, why you won't do it - this is a pretty strong wall on your own to avoid cutting again.
Self harm can be like a drug. When you cut the pain builds a wall that blocks Out all those horrible emotions. But they eventually seep through the cracks and the wall falls down as all the emotions you've blocked flood back harder. The first thing you do is try to build that wall again.
I feel alone and sad and angry but I remember when I used to cut and it made me feel a lot better for a little while.
since youve been suicidal or have been a cutter, it will always be with you in the back of your head. there are things that could trigger you to cut or think about cutting. find out what that trigger is andd stay away from it so you dont have to think about it again.
Firstly, I'll congratulate you for not cutting yourself in years. It's really a difficult thing to do, and I'm so proud you've acheived that. You may be thinking about cutting because of other reasons, like being in a bit of stress, or something about the past or something that reminds you about the time you used to cut yourself. Think of it like a challenge. Challenge yourself that you won't cut yourself no matter how much you think about it. Try distracting yourself, maybe even think about how you stopped yourself from cutting. Talk to those who supported you during that time. Do activities that are fun, and enjoyable.
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