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Poeticmoonlight113
25,875 M Aiming High 6
✨ Depresso Espresso ✨ I have schizophrenia, I am diabetic, struggle with SH and attempts and also an age regressor
PathStep 1 Compassion hearts692 Forum posts247 Forum upvotes321 Current upvotes321 Age GroupTeen Last activeMay, 2024 Member sinceMarch 8, 2024
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Celebrity's of Cups Quotes

Me: I have more pickles (and milk) want some? 

Lucy: I am ok without my pilk thank you

Milk + pickles = pilk 🤣

Star: @CommunityModLucy


𝑯𝒆𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆, 𝑰'𝒎 𝑴𝒐𝒐𝒏𝑳𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰'𝒎 𝟏𝟕 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒐𝒍𝒅. 𝑰'𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒖𝒑𝒔 𝑰'𝒎 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒅 😛

                ✨ Nicknames ✨

🌕 Moonie (only zarsaurous can call me) 

🌕 Moonshine (please ask first) 

🌕 Luna ( only lenasaurous can call me) 

🌕 Starlight (please ask first) 

🌕 Moony (only Annasaurous can call me) 

🌕 moon (anyone) 

🌕 moonlight (anyone) 

🌕 poetic (anyone)

🌕 moonsies (only sunnysaurous)

🌕 Moonie lumie (only Ni)

Any other nicknames welcome ⭐


𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒘 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒐 𝒑𝒐𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒍 𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒑 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏. 

𝑰'𝒎 𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒄𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒚 𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒇 𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒇 𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒇𝒚 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒏 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒆 😭 𝒊𝒅𝒌 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝑰 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒅𝒐. 

                ⭐ My Friends ⭐

🌝 Nadiasaurous ( @iloveyouxx ) 

🌝 Zarsaurous    ( @FaithfulZareia ) 

🌝 Annasaurous  ( @AnnaSilverberg ) 

🌝 Lenasaurous ( Kenzolena ) 

🌝 sunnysaurous ( sunny friend ) 

🌝 moonie Bloom ( lovemymoonflowers

   ⚠️⚠️ 𝑰 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒂𝒈𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒃𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒔 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒏𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒍 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒕 ⚠️⚠️

        ⚠️⚠️⚠️ 𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 ⚠️⚠️⚠️

🌕 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 "𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍" 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒂 𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 "𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒂𝒅" 𝒐𝒓 "𝒐𝒐𝒇 "

🌕 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒂 𝒃𝒊𝒈 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆

                   ✨ 𝑨𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆 ✨

😕 𝑰'𝒎 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒅

😕 𝑰 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒎 

😕 𝑰 𝒂𝒈𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔

😕 𝑰 𝒅𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔

😕 𝑰 𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 

😀 𝑰'𝒎 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐 𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒆𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒎 (𝑷𝑨𝑻) 

















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Pen Pals / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 4 hours ago
...See more Hi @Optimisticempath @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @Tinywhisper11  Miss you guys ❤️
Bye
General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 28th
...See more I have no reason to actually be on cups anymore, I annoy the listeners and they get sick of me. I lost all my friends and the only people that were keeping me going on here. People left all at once and it hurts but I dont blame them. Its my fault I get to attached, it's my fault that my heart breaks so easily. It's my fault that I'm just a pest. People pretend they care. They care for 5 mins and then get sick of me. Some just block me without any reason. I have no friends, ive accepted that. I won't force people to like or care about me. I won't force people to stay in my life but why people walk into my life and then walk straight out. I dont get it, I probably never will.  I know im not the easiest kid to deal with. I know im just a useless idiot that no one ever believes. There's more to my life that I don't tell, things that would connect all the *** events but whats the point of even sharing them 🤷‍♀️ people break my trust and shatter my heart so easily and they don't even care but the point is.... Im leaving cups, maybe I'll return in September when I age up to the other side but for now I just give up with trying to get support and trying to pretend that my friends will return and want to talk to me. So I will be signing out of my account today. I won't be deleting it but I will be deleting the app which is how I get the notifications. Not tagging anyone because there's no point so yeah bye and if im alive still by time it's my birthday then maybe ill return but im done with trying lately. Helplines don't care about me. People on here don't, no one in real life does so why should I bother trying to get mental health support 🤷‍♀️ Sooooooo bye 👋  (I'll check my account for the next few days maybe but after I wont be using it)
TW//
General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 24th
...See more Had an apointment a few days ago to deal with something and idk now I feel regret but I know there's no going back at all. Sigh 😕 
Just a crying vent corner
General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 20th
...See more Notice: if you can't say anything nice then just don't say anything and go... Don't recognise my username?? Then I guess this corner isn't for you to read 🤷‍♀️✨ Yes you can bookmark the thread if you know me but if you don't then please dont unless you want to be my friend then sure message Vent zone                         TW//// Crying my eyes out so hard to the point my eyes are burning, im tired of dealing with all this, I'm drained and I feel like I'm loosing everyone. People find out I'm schizophrenic and walk out my life or they find I'm just a worthless annoying idiot that has no friends 💔  I want to cancel my feelings, wish I could make it my own personal law :/ No feelings = I be okay No feelings = no one has to deal with me I want to go back to when things felt a little okay. If I never talk or talk to anyone then I can't say anything to upset people, seems even just a hi manages to upset people in my life :/ been tryna keep my thoughts to a safe ish mindset but slowly the bad thoughts are coming back :/  I just don't want to do anything anymore, I wanna stay in my bed and not talk to anyone. I know that sounds mean but I can't deal with all this. First day back at school today and it was awful, I got screamed at 😭 First day back and I'm already drained and don't want to go back. This *** hurts and lately I don't trust anyone, even the people that I'm ment to. Maybe that's my head saying it but I really don't trust anyone. I don't want to hurt people  Yet even just opening up about the *** in my life is clearly wrong :( what am I ment to do anymore. Probably just end up cutting everyone off yet I feel alone at the same time The other day I had panic attack, the night mares are back and my whole world is caving in. I just want to scream "I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine" :/ sigh 😞 maybe people would be better off and happy if they never met me I'm so so so exhausted, I relapsed tonight, like 30mins ago. But it didn't help, *** still hurts :( 
I failed
General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 15th
...See more I'm nothing but a big fat failure :/
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General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 19th
...See more Hello person that decided to peek ✨ I will ask you nicely again to not read on, please respect that, the way that you'd want someone not to read if you put the same... Tagging the people that can read: @iloveyouxx ❤ @TinyWhisper11 ❤ @FaithfulZareia ❤ @AnnaSilverberg ❤ @theboymoana ❤ @Optimisticempath ❤ @Sunisshiningandsoareyou ❤ @Rebekah ❤ TW// Sexual assault / Pregnancy / suicidal thoughts / broken bone / run away | Found out I'm pregnant again, it's moms boyfriends kid yet I can't even tell my so called carer, she already caused my old social worker too loose her job and got her fined, I don't know what she would do if she found out about the baby. I don't know what to do about the baby, do I keep it or not??  Sigh idk anymore, my thoughts been getting progressively worse, attempted last night, I don't regret doing it but I'm also not suicidal whilst typing this. Ran from my carer too, been sat at my comfort place the whole time other than a few times hiding from the police that do there rounds at the canal.  I feel so shut off from the world, all I do is sit and stare for hours doing nothing, hoping the ground will swallow me up or something. I don't feel safe anywhere anymore, I feel like everyone is out to hurt me, every minute I feel like someone is gonna jump out of nowhere and hurt me. My head goes crazing saying "there gonna get you" I'm scared but cos I'm schizophrenic people just think I'm a phsyco I wanna hide forever, shut everyone out. I'm going insane, I hate it. If I deactivate my account then I'm sorry. I don't know if I'd even come back. I feel lost, very lost, I want to go into hising. I am sorry 💔
10/04/24 💔
Poetry / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 23rd
...See more I don't want to talk I don't want to be seen So please just leave me be Hollow and empty I just want to sleep Shut the whole world out So I'd be left in peace It's too overwhelming Just leave me alone I'm not ready to be seen Just let me hide and be un noticed The feelings cutting deeper The end of social media The putting away of my phone I don't want to talk I don't want to be seen So please let me be I want to shut the world out Go unseen and be at peace I'm too tired to talk Don't want a conversation I'm tired I want to go unseen So why cant everyone leave me be Ready to be hidden so deep To just be at peace and go unseen Not forever Only for a bit Just let me be unseen Whilst I'm in a pit The pain of others to hard to carry I don't want to talk I don't want to be seen I don't want to do anything So please leave me at peace
Leaving cups
General Support / by Poeticmoonlight113
Last post
 April 11th
...See more I think I need to leave. I feel like I'm just on here to not upset my friends. But part of me don't want to be here ☹️ There's no fun of me being here, I used to be so desperate to come on here but lately i feel like I have to be here. I used to have listener friends that I could talk to but they either blocked me and swore at me and told me to off myself or they just ignore me. I had teen friends on here but now I don't, they either left or act weird with me like I'm making them talk to me ☹️ I come on cups and think why am I here or I join rooms and then immediately leave.  I get blanked in rooms when I have no friends in the rooms, I'm tired of it. I just want someone to talk to yet I have no one. People say they'll talk to me but don't once they've got sick of me, people act like they care for 5 minutes and then dont. If people talk to me out of sympathy or pity or just using me then don't. People come in my life, I get attached, I open up, they turn nasty. I can't do it. I just want someone to stick around and actually care.  Idek who gives a *** about me anymore, idk who to call a friend, I don't know who I can trust. I don't *** know 😭😭 (Great am in tears now 💔)  Tagging some of the people I've met during my time on here ~ feel free to ignore @ChillingRain @AnnaSilverberg @DanCat1128 @CommunityModEden @CommunityModAaron @iloveyouxx @LoveMyMoonflowers @DarkerPlaces @theboymoana @FaithfulZareia Bye! 
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