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proactiveYard5156
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Emotional disregulation
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by proactiveYard5156
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 Tuesday
...See more I have something called emotional disregulation which is related to CPTST and because of that sometimes I really can’t control my emotions or anger and it became the biggest problem in my life specially the things which trigger it the most is when im in a relationship… im already searching for a cognitive therapist but all i got till now is having my name in many waiting lists for them.. i wrote a post in a group before explained the situation which happened between me and my bf and the problem im dealing with and asked what a reaction of normal person can be as i couldn’t really be rational and myself in that fight… i got lots of messages blaming me that i just wanna make excuses and wanna run away from taking responsibility..that i need to go to therapist and its not my boyfriend’s fault that i can’t control myself and i need to grow up… the fact that i can’t control my emotions and angers and the fact that sometimes i don’t have sny control on them is already make me like a monter and awful after reading those messages i hate myself so much and think it would better to not having any contact with anyone.
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Relationship Stress / by proactiveYard5156
Last post
 April 23rd
...See more I was dating my boyfriend for 8 months. At first, till almost 1-2 months ago, he was really intimate. He was trying to do everything. He was the one who always trying to do his best to see me, answering the calls or messages right away, buying me flowers, and all of sudden he started acting different.. claimed he is not happy by answering calls right away or wont be able to call even for 5 minutes as he was in a business trip because he wanted to be by himself.. we had some discussions as i was feeling he keep getting further till last night as he mentioned he understood those triggers and would try his best to fix it…today we finally met after a week and he stayed at my house for couple of hours just saying he doesn’t wanna do something and that he is tired.. all of sudden he asked if he can leave early as he needs to get ready for going to a vip lounge with his friend which made me surprised because he never talked about it. So i asked him why i cant go or why doesn’t he ask his friend to come to my place that i can see him too.. i never met any of his friends… he said he is not sure if i have any clothes which would fit to there and he wanna meet him there… i got shocked and we had a fight he left so i blocked him from everywhere feeling getting used and manipulated.
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