Hi there, Life is hard.. very hard and we should not make more harder by holding all sorts of stuff in our chest. Let us share.. ... If love becomes too painful, then it is time to let that love go and save yourself. We can find another lover but not another self. So save yourself and It is not selfish. Remember a blind person may understand the pain of another blind person but cant lead another blind. Help yourself first so that you can help others and to do so you need to be out of the situation that you are in ... Let us talk.. I have life experience.. prefer to talk to mature members. I am not good at depression and anxiety.