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AwesomeZ99
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Wassup my chillins
My name is Zach (I also go by Sankha) and I exist
I speak Toki Pona (and English obviously)

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Relationship Stress / by AwesomeZ99
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 March 27th, 2021
...See more Hi Long story, but I guess I should share it here, just be prepared for a giant block of text. 6 months ago I was in school and I saw that this girl was casually glancing at me every so often, and at this time I was incredibly confident. So, I became friends with her, got her number etc. etc. then asked her out, because the chances of someone actually liking me are super slim (Confidence and self-esteem are two very different things I've come to learn). The relationship was great up until 6 weeks after I asked her out when she said she didn't actually feel the same way at all and was just going along with it for the same reason that I was. This was of course an upset, but I was kind of thankful because I'd been developing a crush on this other girl... so again, being the confident person I was I did the exact same thing, except this time I actually liked the girl I was going for. Best part was she said yes and we had yet another 6 week, I wouldn't even call it dating because we didn't DO anything. Anyway, she said that she needed to "figure out herself before she got in a relationship" which is, of course, understandable, and so I tried my best to act as a "you can tell me anything, I'm always here for you" because I want her to be safe and happy... After this event, another girl asked ME out (not to be Mr. Gender Roles, but I was taken off guard to say the least) and being the idiot I was instead of waiting for my crush to feel better again I said yes to this new girl... Well guess what, 6 weeks (it's always 6 weeks) after she asked me out, she too needed some time to figure herself out, but unlike my crush, during this time she realized she didnt have feelings for me and told me this. Okay, that's the backstory, so now where I am is because I dated (more... hung out with? idk what it was but it wasnt honest to god dating) 3 girls in such a short span of time, everyone around me, friends included, think I'm a player, and all of my friends have stopped being friends because they think I'm a "bad influence" and I'm desperately in love with my crush and I'm wondering if she'll ever come back. Are the feelings mutual and she actually had things going on or was that a rejection? Will my past actions play a role in what she decides? If she does say no, where do I even go? I don't have any friends to fall back on and my family life is "ehhhh" at best. Needless to say I am VERY confused and mad at myself, but I'm also very much in love... So there you go, I'm honestly not sure what I'm looking for by posting this but now you know
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