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BellexReve
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First Intervention- Any Advice?
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by BellexReve
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 July 19th, 2018
...See more I had my first intervention on Sunday. I struggle with addiction to my prescription pills. I have chronic pain from Endometriosis which is how I got started in the first place. Just a little background: I went to Detox and Rehab in 2013, fell into this big relapse in December when the pain returned. I want to emphasize that pain is no excuse for my addiction or my actions, its just an explanation. So due to the severe pain, I rationalized myself into starting narcotic pain management again. I am overwhelmingly ashamed to admit that I stole pain pills from my mom on two separate occasions. I told her- the first time she so lovingly forgave me. The second time, she was understandably very hurt and angry when I told her. So the intervention came. My family gave me some harsh but accurate truths; a lot of loving things; some hurtful, angry things too though. I didnt say anything but apologies and agreements. I find myself now wrapped in lethal shame, self-loathing, and depression. Theres so much tension in the house. I try to tell myself that my family loves me and supports me- they really, really do. But the Addiction voice says I destroyed my family, wants me to blame so-and-so for this or that. I want to own my actions. I want to change. Any advice? All posts are appreciated.
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