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CurWilliam
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Hating myself
Depression Support / by CurWilliam
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 April 4th, 2020
...See more For the longest time I
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1 Feeling like a bad person for hating myself
Depression Support / by CurWilliam
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 January 2nd, 2019
...See more I always hear people say things like "You can't love anyone if you don't love your self first" and that makes me feel even worse about myself. I already feel like a worthless, unlovable waste of space and apparently on top of that I'm some sort of twisted psychopath who is incapable of loving another person. I wish I could get rid of this self-loathing, but this deep sense of shame is not helping at all.
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When do you get to the point where you can finally love yourself?
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 September 24th, 2018
...See more For a long time Ive hated myself. Always felt like a worthless person unworthy of love. Ive completely lost the will to do anything and was just waiting to die. After a while I realized that this is going nowhere so Ive decided since Im already miserable I might as well put some effort into making my life better and I believe Ive used these past few years wisely. With small changes Ive made every single day my life is finally starting to move in a positive direction. Unfortunately, while this has made me more confident in my abilities, my self-esteem has not improved a single bit. In fact I feel like I hate myself more than ever. Which doesnt make sense because I am better than I ever was. I keep wondering when my list of accomplishments and abilities will be large enough for me to finally be able to love myself. Though I am probably aware that those things only give me temporary satisfaction, they dont make me feel any less worthless and unlovable.
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Confidence vs Self-Esteem
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 April 30th, 2018
...See more People usually conflate these two terms, but they are completely different. Confidence is how much you trust in your abilities while self-esteem is how much you value yourself. Over the years I
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Why should I love myself?
Depression Support / by CurWilliam
Last post
 March 11th, 2018
...See more I constantly hear all this talk about how you must love yourself so others can love you and it's getting on my nerves. How can anyone love THIS? I am just a worthless waste of space that doesn't contribute to anything in this world. I don't deserve to be loved by anyone. I am better off dead.
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Self Criticism
Depression Support / by CurWilliam
Last post
 November 28th, 2017
...See more For many years Ive been overly critical of myself to the point where it drove me to self-harm. Its starting to impede my ability to function. Not only is it harder for me to muster up motivation to do anything and making me harm myself its also affecting my physical health. Im tired all the time, I have to force myself to eat and I feel constant chest pain. Though as much as self-criticism is destructive for me, I need it, without it I wont grow as a person. Of course the obvious answer is to balance out self-criticism with self-compassion, but how do you do that? Even if I was completely mentally sound I still would not be able to get an objective estimate of my own worth because my biases would always influence me.
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