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DarknessSystem
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« DNI → OTI → Half detached from reality <3 »
PathStep 4 Compassion hearts1,136 Forum posts33 Forum upvotes43 Current upvotes43 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2025 Member sinceAugust 25, 2023
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── .✦ INTRO ✦. ──

⭑.ᐟ name : Dark, Cloud, Alastor/Al, Fox , Darkcloud , Shadow (preferred)

age ⤷^᪲᪲᪲ : 17

. ₊ sexuality : Abrosexual/Abroromantic and da Homosexual hehe!

prns ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 : He/Him , They/Them , It/Its , Shadow/Shadowself , Deer/Deerself

⋆.˚ gender : TransMasc

fandoms ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ : HTTYD, Gravity Falls, Hazbin Hotel, LOTR, GOT, FNaF, Creepypasta, Poppy Playtime, Helluva Boss

⌗ . fears : Arachnophobia, Claustrophobia, Coulrophobia, Capiophobia

job/career(s) ₊˚⊹ ᰔ : Social media server moderator, YouTuber, Twitch streamer

⋆. 𐙚 extra : OCD, ODD, OSDD1, CD, MDD, Anxiety, PTSD


Engaged to Alastor and Bill Cipher (BlxzeSystem) <3


-- People That Mean A Lot To Us <3 --

@kenzolena [Thank you so much for being there for us for our entire presence on Cups. It means so much you are here to listen and be friends with us and we hope our friendship can last forever! <3]

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Front Stuck? What's Happening?!
Trauma Support / by DarknessSystem
Last post
 September 18th, 2025
...See more Is it normal to barely hear the alters? To feel half attached to reality? I'm super tired and dizzy. I have no idea how to cope with this. Usually, I just switch out, but it's like when I reach out, a wall blocks me from getting someone to front. I've never felt this before, and I'm so confused.  Am I just front stuck? Or is it something else? This feel so weird, but it's messing with my school life atm and I need to reattach to reality before someone notices...
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« Partial DID / OSDD »
Personality Disorders Support / by DarknessSystem
Last post
 April 21st, 2024
...See more It's been a while since we posted so we'll do it now so we don't forget!! Recently we were speaking with another system and we explained a situation we had. Instead of blackouts withe every alter, it's a blackout with a handful of alters. They explained we may have more Partial DID, but what gets them is we have heavy signs of OSDD as well. We're stuck and don't know what to do. Our parents think I'm crazy because the alters are scared to talk to them. As a result, we're stuck hiding everything from them. We just need help with the understanding of what we may have (at which comes down as a mix). Blackouts & No Amnesia: System Protectors Main Alter Blackouts and Host Amnesia: Eldest Alter ↑  I did the blackouts/amnesia since our host doesn't remember them for a good reason - Cameron
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BPD and DID
Personality Disorders Support / by DarknessSystem
Last post
 September 14th, 2023
...See more Why must this happen? It's like we are a rollercoaster of emotions! yay! We have been trying to get a therapist but everyone we go to tells us either "You're a lost cause" or "Go find someone else, I am not supposed to talk about that". Our last therapist was 6 years ago and it has gotten worse since. Borderline *** sucks and we want to rid of it but cannot. We were misdiagnosed at two *** years old with ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder) and CD (Conduct Disorder). Our parents did not wait for the symptoms to worsen as we got older, they just thought it would be fun to lie to the doctor and just diagnose us incorrectly. Throughout my life, DID has been a blessing to me as the host. Never have I complained about the alters bothering me (even though they do and I just ignore them :']). I love the ability to talk to people and feel I am no longer alone. But sometimes...it gets out of control and I cannot deal with it. Are there any coping mechanisms that other systems use to help with the stress of the alters :'[ Remember, you are the best you and do not let others change that! <3 /p https://tonetags.carrd.co/#masterlist (Tone tags masterlist :3) ***Please use tone tags when talking to me!***
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We Feel Offended and Pushed Away
Personality Disorders Support / by DarknessSystem
Last post
 August 31st, 2023
...See more Our name is Darkness. We mostly go by Dark. We were diagnosed with DID and on the way of being diagnosed with BPD as we believe we were misdiagnosed with ODD and CD as it is an issue prolonging with BPD. We need help with controlling our emotions, because if we have this BPD (which we know we do), we need IEP and we need to learn how to control ourselves first! Please help...we all need help...all 16 of us (not counting the host, Dark). Our parents refuse to get us a therapist, so we are working to pay for our own. They hate us and push our opinions away. We just get yelled at for things we never had done. Our autistic brother is favorited, and just because of our age, they think we should "always act like your age to be accepted, not giving yourself issues you don't have" ...we hate this...help us...
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We need a listener...it has gotten worse
Trauma Support / by DarknessSystem
Last post
 August 29th, 2023
...See more Hello! Our name is Darkness, our host is Dark! My name is Glitchtrap, I'm an alter for Dark and we would like to talk to people who...understand us! Dark's father...he..made us upset and now...he wants to put us in jail for absolutely no reason at all. We just need help. We also have been stressing Dark out and he needs some support! We would love it if someone could get back to us when they can!
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