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DaydreamEllie
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Anxiety Support / by DaydreamEllie
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 February 2nd, 2020
...See more Hi, I'm having some issues which I guess are related to my anxiety, but I'm not sure how or what is happening. I really have no one to talk to about this. I'm just... Im afraid it will get worse. I would come to terms with how I look, with my weight, with a lot of things, but whats stopping me is the thought that it will get worse. For example, my tattoo needs a bit of a re-do and Im stressed about it (I know it sounds like a stupid thing, but for me, mentally, it's challenging). I could come terms with it being a little imperfect, it's nothing objectively horrible, but Im afraid it will get worse with age, the imperfections will be more and more visible, so I cant make peace with that. Its the same with my weight. I'm terrified it will get worse, that I will gain weight, a lot, and it's paralising. I feel like I almost can't start doing anything to make it better, cause I'm so afraid it will get worse. And I dont know why, is this anxiety thing, is this something else? Im worried and confused and no one takes it seriously - my mom doesn't see where is the problem, she sees it as simple tasks... I don't know what is it, or what to do :(
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Journals & Diaries / by DaydreamEllie
Last post
 December 10th, 2019
...See more (I tried to think of a funny name for this diary, but couldn't think of any. Will change once inspiration strikes.) Anyone can comment, honestly. Also, I'm not a native English speaker, so if you do read this, sorry for the errors. So I was watching BBC Sherlock for like a fifth time and I kind of like the concept of John's blog. Therapeutic thing which turned to be his story on how he met Sherlock and about all the andventures they've been through. I honestly thought about starting a blog but I've tried it and I can't keep it up. I get bored, I don't find the time, I really can't be bothered to write article after article. I love writing but I like stories better. Fiction, sci-fi, fantasy... Maybe book one day? But I came to 7cups for an advice, "do you have blog, does it help..." and then I've stumbled across this. People having diaries straight in the forum of 7cups. I like this much better. Less work to set it up, friendly environment... We'll see how this is gonna go. I don't expect this to be the record of my life adventures. I'm not an adventurous person. I would like to be, but I get really anxious if I'm not fully in control of the situation I'm in and that seems quite contradictory to adventures, at least based on what I've been through so far. (...This is getting really long...) Currently, I should be studying for my exam, and I also should be writing my bachelor's thesis. I should also work on my sci-fi WIP, but NaNoWriMo just ended and I got some words on the page so I think I can take a little break. Those are the things I should be doing. I would actually like to study, maybe, that doesn't seem so repulsing, but the thesis, oh boy. No idea how or where to start. Exam seems a bit more pressing. So that's a focus number one. I listed the things I should do. Something tells me I should think about things I would want to do. I want to go out and stare at the sky, somewhere in the middle of nowhere, woods preferably. With some friends, or alone, but like, safe. I want to work in NASA even though I understand nothing about science, it just seems fun to be a scientist and I love astronomy. I want to work on something that actually pays me and I'm so passionate about it I forget about the world. I want to have a chill evening with friends, watching movies, not having to worry about work or school. I want fifth season of Sherlock. I want Falcon and the Winter Soldier to come out already, as well as Black Widow. I want to experience something that changes my life into a big adventure. ...But I think I'm going to have a snack and finish another episode of Sherlock. That seems most doable. Anyway, hope you are having a good day, reader, and if not, I sure hope it gets better. Drink some water. Scroll through Tumblr. I'm sending warm hugs your way!
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