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DichotomousDetia
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PathStep 57 Compassion hearts5,574 Forum posts77 Forum upvotes143 Current upvotes143 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2022 Member sinceApril 3, 2014
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psychology nerd, in and out of therapy for 11 years. On my 18th therapist (give or take), hospitalized 6 times.


I'm just struggling with trauma y'all and I can't get the support network I really need and I'm disabled so the welfare trap is fun.


In the US


He/They pronouns


30 years


Also enjoy some gaming. Board, card, table-top-rpgs, video, etc.



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DID/OSDD Support Chat?
Trauma Support / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 December 19th, 2022
...See more Does anyone know if the DID/OSDD support chats are continuing? Pretty much anyone can host it. i'm not in a place enough yet to dedicate a time to that but if I did it would be afternoon EST in all likelihood. someone was hosting an 11am EST DID/OSDD support room in the Trauma Room but I haven't heard from them and there's no posts about it.
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Grateful for my ESA
Trauma Support / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 July 13th, 2022
...See more I have an ESA cat and he's currently the only thing keeping me alive. I have no family, I had to go no-contact because of the abuse and unwillingness to change. I have no friends closer than 5hrs to me, I moved here for better opportunity and it /did/ help me get on section 8 so that I can finally live on my own without unreliable and triggering roommates. I'm incredibly isolated, I haven't had a safe hug in over 6 months. My cat is the only source of oxytocin I have access to. My friends are usually busy or unavailable because of their time-zone. So I don't have any genuine emotional support. Even though I asked social security again and again what I should know about moving states and how might my benefits change no one told me that I was going to have to start paying insurance premiums and that I should apply to the savings program. I finally applied after seeing that I got 340$ less out of my 861$ a month. 60-90 days for it to get fixed. 60-90 days for cash benefits assistance also. the Affordable Connectivity Program that helps pay for internet also expired without warning. So I suddenly had to pay very much with no warning and no prior knowledge to be able to save up accordingly. I calld my dentist multiple times over the week to check that my new insurance had them in-network but never got a call back so I had a paratransit services ride there just to wait for 2 hours in the heat to avoid 3 teenagers who were being incredibly loud and disrespectful arguing and throwing slurs at each other that were exceptionally triggering. And on top of it, without warning, my government free phone stopped making calls. I was able to get a call to go through to the services and they say it'll take 72 days because they're doing upgrades on the cell towers. I can't find an appropriate doctor for a necessary appointment so I have to deal with a triggering doctor "All of our doctors are professionals" wow it's almost like professionals can be triggering, abusive, and rude anyway. I'm only hanging on for this kitty, and I'm grateful to him.... but I find myself doing research on rehoming because without him then I can finally leave without having to worry about it. I have no cat-sitter. And at this point the psychiatric hospital is part of my plan, you can't be discharged without being medication compliant and if I'm sent home with a prescription I'm sent home with my means and method to get out of earth. It all sucks. And I genuinely haven't any decent emotional support. My friends care, they care very much but they can't fix the life circumstances I have to deal with. They're at a loss of words because for 5 years it's just been an unending onslaught of stress from situations entirely out of my control.
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April: Sexual Assault Awareness Month
Trauma Support / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 May 12th, 2022
...See more Statistics are difficult to gather on this kind of issue and many survivor support spaces are populated heavily with only one gender or only made to accommodate one gender. Here's to acknowledging the men, the intersex, the non-binary persons who experience sexual assault. Here's to acknowledging the Sexual assault of those who are gender variant, intersex, and LGBT+ being a higher statistical prevalence than endosexuals, heterosexuals, and cisgender individuals. You did not deserve what happened to you. May you receive the support you need. Specifically For Men -Includes a 24/7 Crisis help-line (USA) https://1in6.org/ RAINN -Has a crisis phone line (USA) -Has a live-chat https://www.rainn.org/ Information Office For Victims of Crime (USA) -https://ovc.ojp.gov/sites/g/files/xyckuh226/files/pubs/forge/sexual_numbers.html 2019 Statistics for Transgender and Non-Binary + Resources -https://www.nsvrc.org/sites/default/files/publications/2019-02/Transgender_infographic_508_0.pdf LGBTQ+ Information on Sexual Assault + Resources -https://www.hrc.org/resources/sexual-assault-and-the-lgbt-community Intersex Society of North America -https://isna.org/articles/analog/ ACLU - Protection of Prisoners from Sexual Assault -https://www.aclu.org/sites/default/files/assets/012714-prea-combined.pdf Intersex and Medicalized Assault -https://www.ohchr.org/sites/default/files/Documents/Issues/Women/SR/RapeReport/CSOs/177-intersex.pdf (Please share any resources that have helped you personally for others to benefit from as well)
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Most Validating Thing...
Positivity & Gratitude / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 July 13th, 2022
...See more What's the most Validating thing someone has said to you that you can remember? How did it make you feel? Did it help you in anyway? Have you validated others? Feel free to come back and add more if you have new validating experiences! What is validation? "Emotional validation is the process of learning about, understanding, and expressing acceptance of another person's emotional experience. Emotional validation is distinguished from emotional invalidation, when a person's emotional experiences are rejected, ignored, or judged." - VeryWellMind.Com-Validation [https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-emotional-validation-425336#:~:text=Emotional%20validation%20is%20the%20process,rejected%2C%20ignored%2C%20or%20judged.]
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Transportation Trouble
Disability Support / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 March 24th, 2022
...See more To get it out of the way I have ADHD DID (Complex-PTSD with dissociation) Anxiety Depression Okay cool So I greatly benefit from disability transportation that picks you up at your door and drops you off right outside the door of your location. The city bus isn't safe for me because of the dissociation and switching and anxiety and ADHD all combining for me to get horribly lost or engage in behaviors or activities I hadn't planned on. I'm having extreme troubles getting approved for disability transportation which I haven't had before. a "national provider identification number" is required in the professional verification form. I was staying at a homeless shelter and the nurse there had filled out the prof. verif. form many times without needing to provide and NPI and she doesn't have an NPI. Well I haven't been able to see a GP since I moved into this state in November because there's very few doctors in the area I can get to without a car and even fewer who take medicaid/medicare so I haven't seen a GP so the GP won't be very familiar with my disability at all. My therapist filled out a form and I'm HOPING she has a valid NPI but I'm worried I won't be able to make it there to pick up the paperwork to email it to the transportation services. And I have an extension from the transportation services until march 31st so that I can get the paperwork from the doctors. But I don't see my GP until the middle of april. I'm starting to spiral - I was called this morning by the nurse from the homeless shelter her saying she doesn't have and NPI was never required to before and I'd need to see a doctor who would have an NPI and... I'm terrified. I'm terrified this will lead to a downward spiral. When I was left to my own devices on public city transit before I was in danger, actual danger of my life. Not exaggerating danger, I got into bad situations easily. I don't want that again. I'm scared.
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Growth Path Suggestion
Trauma Support / by DichotomousDetia
Last post
 December 18th, 2021
...See more Just doing the growth path and it suggested I post in a sub community. i have nothing worthwhile to say. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. I was diagnosed in 2015. I have been doing extensive research to get my hands on as much information as possible. i've had over 17 therapists becuase theyw on't deal with my disroder, break hippa by asking inapporpriate questions touching inappropriately or sharing messages from clients with family. I've had over 13 different medications and doctors won't lsiten to me that that's my suicide plan so they shouldn't give me any so I have to fight constantly for my own safety not to have psychiatric meds on hand. They think I can just have another person in charge of that and I can't. I'm on disability so I can't living independently at all and my roommates keep tretraumatiming me good times
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