Hey! Good thing you're on 7 cups, just relax your muscles.. I'll introduce myself a bit
I've been struggling ever since my father walked out of my life. It was around that time that I finished elementary school.. I've been bullied, and I was always the target.

My social life collapsed, and thanks to that, the person that I've always loved and I could've been something, but it never happened. I've always liked that person for years and years, but my heart was always broken, stuck with hope. That plus the fact that I was bullied, left with no friends and that I was just very very lonely. Oh, and to top that off, I carried the hate I had for my father towards my father in my heart all the time. I would cry myself to sleep every night, tortured by nightmares and waking up in one. I never gave up on myself because of my mother and brother who always been there for me. And because I had something to hold on to, I could lift myself up to a better place.

Now I'm in a way better state, and that didn't come out of no where. I learned a lot, matured way to fast.. something that I regret.. but a lot of wisdom came with it in exchange. I believe I can help you with the struggle you're having with the stuff I've learned in my life.