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Eeyan28
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I don't know what living a balanced life feels like




When I am sad
I don't cry, I pour
When I am happy
I don't smile, I beam
When I am angry
I don't yell, I burn
The good thing about
Feeling in extremes
Is when I love
I give them wings
But perhaps
That isn't
Such a good thing
Cause they always
Tend to leave and
You should see me
When my heart is broken
I don't grieve
I shatter

- Rupi Kaur

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Crawl inside my body
Find me where I am most ruined
Love me there

- Rumi

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Hello, I'm Eeyan and this is my member account.






Recent forum posts
Of Popped Out Brain Cells and Unexpressed Emotions (Eeyan's Musings)
Journals & Diaries / by Eeyan28
Last post
February 1st
...See more Let this be a safe space for my thoughts and emotions, things I cannot express in my reality because I have no one to talk to. It's not all gloom; sometimes it's doom. Lol. But seriously, I write nicely, too, so this will also be a dump site for my creative side. It's time to let the crazy out.
It's One of Those Days
Anxiety Support / by Eeyan28
Last post
November 29th, 2022
...See more I sit here at my desk contemplating where my life will take me in the next few weeks. One of the harshest years of my life is almost over. I cannot wait for it to end, but then, I was born in December so I have to celebrate that if only to remind myself that I still mean something in this world. Things always have a price. That promotion I was aiming for? I got it after several months of trying. The next day, I lost my father. Those opportunities I've always worked so hard to achieve? I got it after several years of dedication and tenacity. Now that I have it, my anxiety is off the charts and while I function to the best of my abilities (and excel in them, to be fair), I cannot find it in me to feel a sense of fulfilment and purpose. That partner who I've always tried to manifest from the universe since 2016? I met him; it was magical, and we were the ideal match in our books. But we live in different parts of the world separated by 8,294 miles and 13hours, and his main love language is physical touch/presence so now, I don't know where we are. It turns out, presence trumps up connection. And just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, I was laid off from work together with every single one of my teammates, less than a hundred days before the holiday season. That's not just teammates who won't have anything this Christmas season, but families that are left hanging, devastated, and with no means to support themselves in what would be considered our cold months. I want to see the light, universe. I want to feel the warmth of the season. But tell me how. Please? :'(
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