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Evanesce
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Relationship Abuse
Trauma Support / by Evanesce
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 June 26th, 2019
...See more Im not sure where to start. It is a lot of information to share. I would appreciate some input and anything to help support. This is something that is very hard to to talk about so I feel like I just need to get it out: My boyfriend and I have been on and off for about 2 years now. We have currently been back together for 8 months now. When we first started dating he was a heavy drinker, and I mean heavy. He was drinking almost everyday to the point of black out. Drinking had also made his anger issues worse. I struggled with a drinking problem as well at the time. To spare the details, he had raped me when he was black out drunk and had hurt me quite badly. when he woke up he acted like everything was fine. In fact, he had forgotten most of everything that happened. Later he had mentioned he was sorry, felt terrible about it, and refused to hurt me ever again. Hes even cried over it. It was like he was possessed. When he is sober he is so sweet, so kind, and truly my best friend. He is not manipulative. He is not psychically or emotionally abusive in anyway. He has stopped drinking now and has completely changed how he treats me. He is now the man I want to marry. I just cant get over what he did to me that night. It scares me to think that he could do it again, sober or not. Idk what to do. I love him very much, but I think about this from time to time and it still bothers greatly. Please help, or share youre own story.
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