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GP1519
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PathStep 3 Compassion hearts12 Forum posts18 Forum upvotes14 Current upvotes14 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2020 Member sinceJuly 31, 2017
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How do I let go & not care.
Relationship Stress / by GP1519
Last post
 December 4th, 2020
...See more currently dealing with is with someone whom I knew it would never work out with. We are from different worlds & our family/groups basically hate each other. He lives with his very toxic ex who is ultimate drama & control. we have been seeing each other on the DL for 5 months. I was at the tail end of a different set of heart aches & was just looking to have fun with someone to ease my mind. What started off as just a "fling" (literally after one night) turned into him just being prince charming (excluding us hiding it from everyone) letting me know how amazing I am & changing the way he felt about life. I tried to put things on ice by saying we should just be friends because of our situation but he insisted he liked me more than anyone he's met in years. We have talked everyday of the last 5 months with a time or two of the ex trying to get involved but never know what was up or who I was. I know this is all read flag stuff but emotions right. well 4 days ago he started saying that he felt in love with me, I'm basically the best that's happened to him & sending me love songs.
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How to Stop a "Bleeding Heart"
Relationship Stress / by GP1519
Last post
 September 17th, 2019
...See more This whole year for me has been heart break after heart break. A cycle of people treating me bad & me forgiving w/o an apology because I see them hurting as well and just want them to feel loved. Hoping some day they will become their "true selves" and it will all be worth it. I'm beginning to accept that most likely that will not be the case and I'm just allowing myself to be walked on & disregarded because I love them more than they could ever love me. I've forgiven all who have hurt me this year & moved on from it all. The only hindrance is my feelings for one of my best friends. He has had an extremely difficult year & I've gone lengths to show him I will always be there/ never leave him. But nothing I do seems to matter, he always ends up walking away like I was never apart of his life. Then on a "good day" (not sure the reasoning so that's how I explain it to myself) he will show up or I will hear from him & for that moment we are everything I dream us to be. We joke/laugh, have good conversation & say how much we love & miss each other and just when I can feel the spark in my heart of happiness to just be with him, he's gone again. & I don't mean just go about living life but he will completely block me out. I feel as if its some game to him but I don't know how to stop it because I am desperate for his presence & he knows it. (A wolf in sheep's clothing, so sweet & lovable but what is the intent behind it?)
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