Hi!

I've been on this rock for 25 years and I still don't know what I'm doing.
I want to write, draw and dance but I can only do it for my eyes since I feel that I tear it all down anyway so nobody else can see how much pain there is.

I've been raised in a household, and in a life, where emotion is scary. Emotion will get you in trouble. Anything less that a smile and you're deemed unstable and crazy and should be punished for being angry, sad or any of the "negative" emotions.

I also love things a little too much sometimes since it fills holes that just feel like the longer they stay empty, the more the pain pools up in those spots.

I want to laugh again. I want to smile and look at the sky and be thankful. I want to see the sunshine. Please ask me how I'd doing, I don't men to ignore you, sometimes I'm just in my own head and want someone to coax me out.