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Gumirami
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PathStep 27 Compassion hearts38 Forum posts28 Forum upvotes19 Current upvotes19 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2018 Member sinceApril 2, 2018
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I didn't really recover
Eating Disorder Support / by Gumirami
Last post
 August 8th, 2018
...See more The 90% of the time I'm thinking about starving but I can't do it anymore. I don't know if it is because I'm too hungry but I lost the control of it. Now I'm 10kg heavier but I'm not better, all I do is eating and regretting it then cry all day. I just can't restrict again, this is a mess and the thoughts will haunt me forever. I love how I used to look... I miss it. But I can't do anything and I'll be in this state forever. Somehow I still have anorexia but I eat a lot every day🤷‍♀️I think this is how the rest of my life will be and I hate it.
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Help me please >_
Eating Disorder Support / by Gumirami
Last post
 July 8th, 2018
...See more I don't want to continue eating... I don't know how to scape from this terrible fear of gaining weight. I liked how I looked before recovering but I can't starve again because I'm with my family all time and I also don't want to make my health worse. I can't stop thinking I'm ugly and I'm still underweight so I don't know how would I feel when I'm normal😐. I hate thinspo pictures so much I can't delete them from my mind... I want to be like that girls. I also think that if I'm skinny it shows better my personality but I can't explain how and I don't want people to see me different from how I am, first impressions are really important and even if you don't want to do it you judge people by how they look. This gives me a lot of anxiety and all I do is eat cry and sleep hahaha. I bought clothes yesterday and that was triggering af. Kill me please T-T
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