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Haylens
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PathStep 28 Compassion hearts16 Forum posts11 Forum upvotes13 Current upvotes13 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2017 Member sinceNovember 11, 2016
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The word "rape"
Trauma Support / by Haylens
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 April 8th, 2020
...See more Does anyone else have a hard time saying the word "rape"? If I'm talking to someone I trust about it I usually say "the thing that happened to me" or something like that. I won't even say sexual assault
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Panic attacks
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 December 12th, 2016
...See more If I could just get my panic attacks under control, that'd be wonderful
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I can't anymore
Trauma Support / by Haylens
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 December 9th, 2016
...See more The fact that 6 years later he still has power over me, coming in my life, controlling what I do and say. The fact that he can still make me feel guilty and ashamed and like I need to die because he said that everyone would be better off without me and his girlfriend told me to kill myself everyday for 4 years. I hate it that I cut last night because of him. I hate him. I can't do this anymore
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Panic attacks
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 November 19th, 2016
...See more Today I was working at the pizza restaurant and I look up to ask what the customer would like me to make and I freeze. It's him. He smiles and it makes me think he's thinking "ha I got you" I quickly make the pizza, run to the back, and tell my boss I'm not feeling well and he lets me go. I get in my car, race to my church that's 5 miles away, text a friend, she comes and finds me, and I breakdown and have the worst panic attack I've had in a while. I keep having panic attacks and they are so exhausting I can't stop them though. What can I do?
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I don't know what to do anymore
Trauma Support / by Haylens
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 November 21st, 2016
...See more I had just moved to a new state and was in my last semester of 8th grade, when a classmate molested me. My grades went from A's and B's to D's and F's. I almost didn't pass the 8th grade. I went on to high school and 3 months into high school I was digitally raped ( when a guy fingers you without your consent ) I pushed it so far out of my mind that I barely thought about it and never told anyone. The summer before my senior year I was at a summer camp and I completely broke down randomly. I didn't tell anyone till the beginning of my senior year. Now a sophomore in college, I'm just now getting intensive therapy and the panic attacks are getting worse and worse as I talk about it and I don't know what to do. I got diagnosed with severe depression, insomnia, generalized anxiety, and ptsd. And I tend to have suicidal thoughts because the guy told me I didn't matter and that people would be better off without me. I still see him from time to time and freeze as soon as I see his face. Does anyone else feel like this?
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