Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
IICheshireII
7,517 M Moving Along 6
PathStep 13 Compassion hearts554 Forum posts172 Forum upvotes85 Current upvotes85 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2021 Member sinceNovember 11, 2018
Bio
Recent forum posts
IICheshireII profile picture
i was assaulted. it's affecting me physically now
Relationship Stress / by IICheshireII
Last post
 December 15th, 2018
...See more trigger warning blah blah you shouldnt be here if youre that sensitive. its very biological health focused, and its pretty gross, so be warned. so, starting when i was six and ending when i was 16, i was repeatedly assaulted by this fucking jackass named jeremy, whatever. im pretty much numb to it now. anyway, since im a boy, it was all anal, and since then ive had consistant, absolutely EXCRUCIATING stomach cramps, along with a bunch of gastro-intestinal issues and trouble passing bowel movements. any ideas about what exactly happened and what i can do about it? thanks, its getting out if control. the last time i cramped i passed out.
IICheshireII profile picture
please please be able to help somehow
Trauma Support / by IICheshireII
Last post
 November 21st, 2018
...See more trigger warning... for the usual things youd find here. idk. i hope you have some way to help me. i need help. okay... ive never told anybody about this before. ill probably never tell anyone i know, but i feel like i need to let it out. so, when i was six, my mom joined some sort of church group, im not sure what it wad exactly, but it met in someone's house. anyway, she would bring me and my sister (we're twins), and let us play with the other kids. they were mostly our age, but there was an older kid named Jeremy. he was kinda creepy, he never really talked to us and he was always watching me and my sister. most people couldn't tell us apart, and it took my mom awhile to figure out who was who, because we had the same haircut. even as we got older, when i was eleven, we looked very similar. that day, he tried to take my sister but he grabbed me, so i ended up being taken to his room alone. i tried to yell but he pulled out a knife, which he had alot of around his room, and told me if i yelled he'd kill me. i started crying quietly and he did alot of horrible things to me, until he figured out i was a boy. he got angry then, and it got so much worse after that. it lasted about three hours, i think. i never told anyone, and he kept doing it, and i let him because otherwise he'd take my sister. i didnt really understand that it was wrong, either, id never heard of this before. i just lived with it. it stopped when i was 16, when we moved states. ive had a couple other run ins with people like that, even a couple months ago, but nothing as long and horrible. i still have nightmares about it, and im scared because my mom is thinking about moving back, and she's still friends with his family, so there would probably be an obligatory meeting. everyone thought we were friends, too, since i was always in his room. i hate talking about it and thinking about it and knowing about it and i hate that im too weak to stop it from happening again. im never telling anyone. never. ive thought about it for months, i couldnt do it. i dont even have a question, i wouldnt know what to ask, but i feel like i need an answer anyway? i have no idea what to do about any of this and i really need some direction, there's so much going on. i feel lost. thanks for listening, even if you dont know what to either.
IICheshireII profile picture
please, just, please be able to help me
Trauma Support / by IICheshireII
Last post
 May 6th, 2019
...See more trigger warning? bad stuff. just... dont read if you could be upset by horrible things. okay... ive never told anybody about this before. ill probably never tell anyone i know, but i feel like i need to let it out. so, when i was six, my mom joined some sort of church group, im not sure what it wad exactly, but it met in someone's house. anyway, she would bring me and my sister (we're twins), and let us play with the other kids. they were mostly our age, but there was an older kid named Jeremy. he was kinda creepy, he never really talked to us and he was always watching me and my sister. most people couldn't tell us apart, and it took my mom awhile to figure out who was who, because we had the same haircut. even as we got older, when i was eleven, we looked very similar. that day, he tried to take my sister but he grabbed me, so i ended up being taken to his room alone. i tried to yell but he pulled out a knife, which he had alot of around his room, and told me if i yelled he'd kill me. i started crying quietly and he did alot of horrible things to me, until he figured out i was a boy. he got angry then, and it got so much worse after that. it lasted about three hours, i think. i never told anyone, and he kept doing it, and i let him because otherwise he'd take my sister. i didnt really understand that it was wrong, either, id never heard of this before. i just lived with it. it stopped when i was 16, when we moved states. ive had a couple other run ins with people like that, even a couple months ago, but nothing as long and horrible. i still have nightmares about it, and im scared because my mom is thinking about moving back, and she's still friends with his family, so there would probably be an obligatory meeting. everyone thought we were friends, too, since i was always in his room. i hate talking about it and thinking about it and knowing about it and i hate that im too weak to stop it from happening again. im never telling anyone. never. ive thought about it for months, i couldnt do it. i dont even have a question, i wouldnt know what to ask, but i feel like i need an answer anyway? i have no idea what to do about any of this and i really need some direction, there's so much going on. i feel lost. thanks for listening, even if you dont know what to either.
Search more from @IICheshireII
Considering Therapy?
Talk to an expert therapist
Badges & Awards
25 total badges
Hand Shake Quintet Bubbly First Post Reaching out Helping out Appreciated Voice Contributor Community First Compassion Helpful heart Kindness personified Loving Soul Bundled Group Chimer Group Chatter Group Supporter Group Carer Group Healer Supportive Smile Friendly Face Teammate Group Friend Forum Friend Meaghan's Heart
Report an issue