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...See more To introduce myself, I'm just a normal guy in my mid-twenties. I completed my Engineering in 2015 (B.Tech, ECE). After college, I met with an accident that changed my life for the worse. I remember nothing of that incident because when I woke up after weeks of treatment, they said I was diagnosed with retrograde amnesia. They said I was awake all along except I wasn't aware of anything. I talked like a normal person. I responded normally. The thing is, it's all my sub-conscious' response. After I gained consciousness I remembered nothing of my accident. It's like a chunk of my memory is lost forever. I didn't bleed or anything like that. A nerve leakage happened which was taken care of. Surgery was not needed, fortunately. I was discharged with a note that I got to wear a helmet for safety. By that time, I didn't know the worse was yet to come. My parents were being scared after that incident, didn't allow me to do any kind of outside activities. I wasn't even allowed to go to a nearby store or anything like that. For a couple of years, I was ideal in the home. I wasn't allowed to go for a job. Indian parents are too control of their children. My parents, on the other hand, are a whole new level. My friends who studied with me were pursuing their life/dreams happily while I was at home, feeling helpless. After a couple of years, my parents came forward to allow me to take some mundane job with a low salary in my locality. I mean I was already recovered at this point. What about my dream? I did Engineering after all! I am not even a dull student. I never had any backlogs during my school and college days! I always wanted to go places and explore. I'm a travel-minded person. They ruined those couple of years by making me stay at home. I conveyed my idea of higher studies at this point since I couldn't get a job for my qualification considering my parents won't allow me getting out of my locality and I've already wasted those couple of years. So I tried getting a seat at a decent Business School in France to do my masters. And I did get a seat. Trust me they agreed to send me abroad just because I had to convince them with so many promises. Little did I know that my parents weren't having so much money to send me abroad to study. We hopefully opted to get the study loan. Then Life hit me harder. Since my parents have debts, our house can't be used for the surety to get the loan. By this time I had lost all my hopes. I've no idea what to do anymore. I couldn't attain my dream to travel places. I can't get a job with good pay as every employer is asking what I've done all these years. I'm not even eligible to be interviewed by certain companies without experience. It's been 3 and a half years. I'm still ideal at my home. I don't want some mundane jobs that'd keep me grounded and bury me alive. It's like a living suicide to me. I feel like a failure and useless. Day by day I'm losing hope even to survive. I've had suicidal thoughts, but I'm too scared for that. I'm out of ideas. I'm ready to do anything that'll make sure I'd live my dream. I wouldn't mind pursuing a whole new education if thats what it takes. If I can pursue higher studies abroad and money isnt an issue, I will gladly do. Someone, please help, guide me! What am I suppose to do now? What do I have to do to get myself out? If you want to ask me anything for more details, please feel free to ask! (Please forgive me, if you find any mistakes) Thank you.

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