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Kallllee
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my bf calls me lazy
Relationship Stress / by Kallllee
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 October 11th, 2024
...See more Hi, so i (18) met my boyfriend (will be 18 in a month) almost a year ago, we started dating within a ~week when we met. at first it was great, until it wasnt, in july we broke up, we had a lot of problems blablabla then we were no contact for some days until he hit me up again and we were able to talk for the first time about our problems so rhat both of us listened to each other, then evrything was great again, we werent like 'officially' back togerher but we did all the rhings that couples did, until evrything went *** again. Ive been dealing wirh a lot of stuff at the moment, I turned 18 and i live in a very bad household, i want to move out but i can't at the moment because i need to sell my pony first. So thats really hard, ive had her for 8 years and now if i want to move on i just need to sell her so i could move out with the money i get from her. Then my dog died. then problems with school and well obv my family and yeah. But recently Me and my bf have been arguring a lot again and well now two/three times it has ended with him telling me im just lazy that why wont i just do *** blabla. I've been depressed since i was 10. I have a lot of childhood trauma and beacuse of that i cant enjoy a lot of stuff and im scared of a lot of stuff blablabla. Ive been to a psych ward. I've tried atleast 5 different antidepressants. none of them worked. I was also on calming meds and some adhd *** and sleeping pills. Sleeping pills never worked they just made me *** dhdkdhdk, but like xanax and stuff like that worked to get me out of panic attacks and stuff. So ive been diagnosed with severe depression for about 4 years now, i kept it as a secret most of my childhood beacuse i didnt have anyone to talk to ablut it, but once i tried to do somehting bad idk it wont let me tell that' i got caught blablabla. anyways, ive tried to tell my boyfriend that things are just a lot harder dor me, its not just that 'get up and do my stuff', im trying my best to be that way but i just cant. But he was depresses, when he was a teenager well younger atleast then he said 'but i was avle to do evrything even tho i was depressed' and 'beacuse the meds arent working you obviously dont have depression'... so he called me lazy. Ive tried to explain that depressions are different. not evryone experiences the same kinf of depression, and just beacuse the meds dont work doesnt mean i dont have depression. and he just yeah, doesnr believe me. and i honetlsy dont know what to do. i know some of you gonna say to break up balblabla but i dont want ro. i still love him i still care and i know he does too, just this thing *** sucks and i need help *** or i just wanted to tell someone idk. anyways have a great day eveyone❤️ he said a lot of more stuff but its really late and i dont wanna think about it that much, just wanted to get it out of my chest
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