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KikiD214
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*Trigger Warning* THIS IS MY STORY
Trauma Support / by KikiD214
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 August 8th, 2023
...See more Hi... I just need to get this off my chest somehow cause it's killing me slowly... I am being sexually abused by my stepdad since I can remember... I can still remember the first time it happened, it was a Saturday night so my mom went to the supermarket with my older brother to get some snacks for us to eat, they didn't take me cause he was there. I was in the living room and he was in his bedroom laying on the bed when he called me, so I went, he lifted me up placing me on top of him with my legs wide open right under his... u know (I can't even say it f*ck). Sooo he started moving me back and forth and said to me: "this will be our little secret, don't you dare tell your momma or anyone, okay?" And I as a 5 year old I just nodded. F*CK HIM!!! I'm so sorry, it's just that I'm so pissed off, but I still can't manage to make him stop... today he did it again right this moment and I couldn't find the strength to move... I-I I can't okay, I'm not strong enough, and I feel so stupid and sooo aghhh. I can't f*cking do this anymore, he is killing me every time he does it... and I can't tell my mom or anyone because he knows that without him we are over... and I can't tell anyone else; I have no one to talk this with and this is also killing me. I'm 19 years old and I am stupid and weak for not stepping the hell up!!! I feel terrible for my younger brother cause it's his dad, what am I gonna tell him if I speak up? "Hey lil' bro your dad's a rapist" NOOO!! I can't do this. I just can't...
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Newbie Hub / by KikiD214
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 March 6th, 2019
...See more Hello 👋🏼 Im struggling but I know you all are, but at least we have each other, to support and to understand what were dealing with. I hope we all get to know better, and keep up you are all doing great, one step at a time... 😌
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