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Kimbpoho
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Relationship OCD regarding sexual intrusive thoughts
OCD & Related Behaviors / by Kimbpoho
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 August 19th, 2025
...See more 18 (M) I used to watch porn a lot when I was a teenager. I’ve since stopped watching it, but it haunts me a lot. I’m in a relationship and I keep on having intrusive sexual thoughts about other people to the point it makes my anxiety spike throughout the whole day. I can’t concentrate on anything because I’m so anxious and worried. It contradicts everything I stand for, and these bad habits of sexualizing everything probably comes from watching porn a lot. I can manage thoughts because I know I’d never cheat on my gf, but when my body has a reaction it’s hard to ignore and I’d spend hours and hours without sleep thinking it over and over again. Am I a bad person? Am I a bad boyfriend? A good boyfriend who loves their girlfriend wouldn’t do this. Is my love disingenuous? I don’t know what to do. I want help. I need help. I hate it. Sometimes it gets so damn hard to deal with it I wish I could just disappear. What do I do to stop sexualizing everything. It’s not what I stand for. How do I stop getting reactions. Do I secretly like it?
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