I have struggled all my life with debilitating Anxiety Disorder. I didn’t understand what was happening to me and how do you even explain it to someone. I then found my new best friend (alcohol), and found that self medicating was great. I could go out now, I had no time for the terrifying thoughts and the numbness from all that worry was a blessing! Or so I thought! Until I realized I no longer wanted to drink, but my body now needed the drink. I have been sober for 22 yrs now. I then somehow beat the anxiety feeling free until tragedy struck and I was thrown into the abyss of the worse anxiety of my life. Then enter the pills they were not alcohol and the Dr. gave them to me so it's ok, right? Wrong? Yes, Xanax the most addictive self medicating drug I’ve ever taken. Fighting addiction, eating disorders, abuse physically and mentally, and of course Anxiety Disorder has been the worst way to live life. However talking to someone who has actually gone through these killers is an amazing way to help others to cope and understand they are not alone.