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LaughingLemon
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I feel like it's all my fault
Depression Support / by LaughingLemon
Last post
 August 7th, 2017
...See more Extreme Trigger Warning Hello everyone, I have been having increased thoughts of self harm recently and my depression has been skyrocketing because of this. I bought a game for this person who was my friend when I was getting bullied heavily in school, for us to play on, not to troll on. Well recently the forums of this game have been ablaze with this person, who has taken my gift, and horribly misused it, telling people hurtful things, making YouTube videos flaming members of the game, and also insulting people and starting arguments with people he dislikes on the game. He's gotten banned from many severs, and many people on the game are getting angry and irritated at his behavior. I feel like it's all my fault because I bought him the game. And I've just had self harm thoughts because I feel like I have to punish myself for trolling with him sometimes when he wanted me to. I know I was young and naive then, and he was one of my only friends when I was getting bullied, but now because no one bullies me anymore, and I see the aftermath of buying him that game. I just can't sleep easy or live life happy anymore, knowing he's on that game causing trouble while I'm enjoying my life with friends. If anyone could give any help, it would be great, thank you and have a wonderful day!
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Paranormal anxiety?
Anxiety Support / by LaughingLemon
Last post
 July 25th, 2017
...See more Possible Trigger Warning Hi everyone, for years now I've been suffering with some type of anxiety that makes me constantly think a monster or horror movie character of some kind is coming to kill me. I still can't go to sleep sometimes because my mind makes me believe Freddy Krueger is real and is going to get me in my sleep. I also can't sleep by myself because everytime I close my eyes I get a thought and picture a killer coming out from under the bed and about to kill me, so I keep opening my eyes right before they do and of course, nothing is there. I also have to close the drain and pour water on top of it before I go to the restroom because my mind tells me if not Pennywise will come stare at me from the drain and talk in that disturbing voice of his. Even though I know this isn't real, I still can't get over it though, whenever I am home alone I always am afraid to go up stairs because I imagine there being some type of monster up there waiting to get me. I know I should be over this stuff by now. But it all seems so real, it also doesn't help I had a horrifying sleep paralysis episode where I could literally hear Freddy Kruegers voice and see his glove come up over my head while I tried to call for help and move out of my bed to no avail. I don't know, is this anxiety or is it a completely different mental disorder on its own, and either way is there coping skills? Thank you for reading, have a fantastic day!
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I need some positive words
Depression Support / by LaughingLemon
Last post
 July 14th, 2017
...See more Hi everyone, I had this event happen in April, and since then I've been struggling and battling with depression on a daily basis, all I can focus on is the people who I hurt and the people who speak negatively of me or said something that hurt my feelings. The only words that go through my head are basically rude ones and it's very hard for me to focus off the rudeness and focus on the positivity. If any of you have any encouraging or friendly words to share with me that might make my day a little bit better, and give me more power and words to fight back the negative thoughts that go through my head, it would be a big help. Thank you for reading and have a wonderful joy filled day!
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OCD bad false memories
OCD & Related Behaviors / by LaughingLemon
Last post
 July 11th, 2017
...See more I get bad memories flowing through my head quite a bit, and I also get a lot of just awful false memories and I feel like I legitimately was the root of a problem I had barely anything to do with. My compulsion is reassurance and confession, I feel like I must reassure that I didn't do the thing I get the false memory from and that I must also confess to remove some of the guilt. Every one of my obsessions most of the time is not true, but it's just so hard for me to accept that, and on top of that I also talk way too much about my obsessions to people asking for reassurance and I think it's starting to annoy most of them. Does anyone here have any advice to dismiss or push away these false memories off my mind? If you do I would be extremely grateful. Thank you for reading and have a wonderful day!
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