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Grief & Loss / by LavenderDreams1
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 December 26th, 2025
...See more I'm not sure what to do. Am I just supposed to keep quiet and forget. Or not talk about her ? My mom doesnt want to talk about her since it makes her too sad. I recently lost my cousin this month. She came back in our lives after lost contact a couple of months ago. She became a constant in our lives these past 7 months. She came back worried about my mother and her ongoing health issues. We called her every day. We saw each other 2 or maybe 3 times a week. The last time we spoke she was sad. Next day we called and no answer. We were a bit worried. Next day we were called because other family couldn't get in contact with her. My sister and the daughter of the cousin decided to break in. They found her. At her funeral she didn't look like herself. I think that and with our last conversation its hard to accept she's really gone. But now when she is mentioned people only want to speculate about her cause of passing. If it was an accident or not. Now my mom doesn't want to talk about her anymore because its too sad. This is my first time experiencing grief. I'm not sure how do I go on from here? Sometimes I'm thinking about it too much that my anxiety is all over the place. My ptsd that I've had for a long time is at a high. Where do I go from here? The only one I can talk to is my therapist. I almost feel this sense of guilt for not having myself together like everyone else.
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