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Lightsout19
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PathStep 67 Compassion hearts30 Forum posts22 Forum upvotes36 Current upvotes36 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2022 Member sinceAugust 9, 2020
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Just ranting...
Anxiety Support / by Lightsout19
Last post
 August 19th, 2021
...See more Tomorrow I start with classes at university again, like laboratory classes and all that and I'm so not into it. It was hard for me, before the pandemic, to go to class and to be there and, it was so difficult. I remember that I was asking for something, anything that would help me get out of going to class. And so the pandemic started and online classes started, it was such a relief for me, I enjoyed classes online and I was so relaxed at home and I still am, after year and a half I can say I'm so secure and happy at home and now l have to go back, not fully, maybe like halfway, but it's like the beginning of going back to things as they used to be and it brings me so many bad feelings. By now my social anxiety it's as its worst, I have a really bad time taking to people, having conversations it's something that makes me physically and mentally tired and nervous and insecure and a lot of negative feelings, it was bad before but now it's just awful, I kinda lost that little capacity to relate myself with others and respond to a social environment and it just adds to the depression, cause I wish I didn't have this social anxiety and now I have to add up the fact that I'm scared to go out, the city has become so insecure that I'm so nervous all the time when I'm outside, and now I have to face that again and I'm not ready, i don't think I'll ever be ready but i can't just say anything, everyone thinks that those things I experiment it's me overreacting and it's unnecessary and stupid so i can't talk about it, i can't show that weakness in front of others because it's bad, it's working, it's useless, it doesn't make sense. So here I am, with the anxiety eating me from the inside out and the depression having a peak when I have done zero homework because I have zero energy and I can't really focus for more that 5 minutes but i have to deal with it because life goes on and I can't use that as an excuse for not fulfilling my responsabilities.
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Mental breakdown
Depression Support / by Lightsout19
Last post
 March 23rd, 2021
...See more I saw this video about signs of a mental breakdown, then I saw this other video about signs of depression and I have everything. I have so many questions because I keep having this dark moments and I'm scared. The saddest thing is that I can't afford a therapist even if I want to seek out for profesional help.
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Father issues
Anxiety Support / by Lightsout19
Last post
 March 29th, 2021
...See more I have to ask for a favor to my father and it's the most awful and stressful thing because it feels like he just puts all the blame on me and seeing how he turned his life and it's living better and is giving his other son so much more than he's ever given to me and if I ask him something it's like he's doing it out of the goodness of his hear, I feel so humiliated I don't want to do it :(
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Zero energy
Anxiety Support / by Lightsout19
Last post
 March 13th, 2021
...See more Do you have a hard time getting things done but at the same time being anxious because you feel like everything you do is wrong or it's gonna come out wrong? Because I've been feeling exactly that way.
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