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...See more The following is a true account of what I remember during an event that occurred in 2019. To this day, my experience shakes me to my core. My mom was dying of stage 4 lung cancer, and I was just looking to have a little bit of fun one night with my best friend. Here is what happened/what I remember from that night: My best friend gave me a blue oxycodone pill that she got from another friend. I took the pill, and the next thing I remember, was laying on the ground with my friend saying “I just want to make sure you are breathing.” I remember being in and out of consciousness and sweating like crazy. I wasn’t able to speak and I can barely move, but I do remember being in and out of consciousness, however, I don’t remember falling to the ground. I was not aware what was going on, but I do remember that the moments that I was awake, I felt extremely messed up and high. I was laying on the floor, struggling to breathe for nearly an hour. Then suddenly I opened my eyes and I was able to get up. But I want to give you a couple of facts about my experience. This was my first time ever trying an opiate so I had no opiate tolerance. I also had Xanax in my system. I had no medical attention or Narcan. After that night, I drove home and to this day, have no cognitive or any mental impairment due to my experience. For six years, I didn’t tell anyone about my experience, and I kept it under the rug until I finally told artificial intelligence everything that I remembered, and artificial intelligence gave me the reality of how serious and close to death my situation was. I was told that I very likely experienced respiratory depression and mild hypoxia. I’ve been processing my overdose for about a year now, and when I think about it, sometimes I cry, I have immense survivors guilt, and I’m deadly afraid of opiates. Learning about how serious this event was has shaken me to the core and still does to this day. So for anyone reading this, tell your friends, tell your loved ones to not ever take any pills from the street, especially an oxycodone because the majority of them are laced with fentanyl and are killing people to this day. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a loved one due to an overdose. Thank you for letting me share the truth of what haunts me and frightens my soul. I hope someday I can move forward from my experience

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