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Medusa19
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Ex has broke me spirit for relationships or love
Relationship Stress / by Medusa19
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 June 10th, 2020
...See more I dated my bestfriend of 2 years. After the break up I started digging up more and more of his lies. During our friendship he lied to me countless times but I loved him too much that I pushed it aside. The morning of the breakup I woke up crying from a nightmare where he cheated and left me, his response was that sucks sorry. Then while I was work at that night he was with his ex. The break up was mutual because I was tired of his bull crap. But then someone tagged his car I didnt find out til a few days later. He was slandering my name on social media (which my friend showed me) calling me psycho. Said awful things to me blamed me even when the person who did do it came forward apologizing to both of us. His friends started to harassing me and my friends. Accusing us of stocking him even tho I have no way too. This left my heart destroyed cause Ive never had a healthy relationship. And he knew this. My emotions were so bad I couldnt keep anything down for 6 days. I lost 14lbs in those 6 days. A month has passed. I no longer cry I just get really sick and anxious when I think of him. The other day I had a full blown panic attack that left my hands shaking for over an hour, after I THOUGHT I saw him. I Dont miss him and dont want him in my life. But idk how to get over this. I have no desire to kiss anyone, which has never happened before. I also never ever want to be with anyone anymore. Can someone please explain whats happening with my emotions?
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