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Mshadows
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PathStep 328 Compassion hearts78 Forum posts18 Forum upvotes23 Current upvotes23 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2025 Member sinceJune 17, 2017
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Ability to sabotage
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 December 30th, 2023
...See more I’m not completely ok with my ability to sabotage or destroy myself. The idea of me capable of such things makes me extremely anxious and overwhelmed. I cannot really think of anything else. It drives me crazy and cannot enjoy myself, not even on weekends. So imagine how I feel about other who I cannot control or read their minds. My anxiety goes to the roof when I think of approaching someone or someone approaching me. My imagination goes wild and cannot think of anything else beside what they could do to me, are they going to hurt me, humiliate me, kill me even? Anyone has similar experiences?
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Meaninglessness
Depression Support / by Mshadows
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 January 11th, 2023
...See more I am not sure about anything in life. I feel lonely and not sure about any of my relationships. I don’t feel close to nor understand people around me. Am I born in the wrong world or simply a mistake should never have existed in the first place.
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Self-Sabotage
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 December 31st, 2022
...See more I am anxious and scared of getting a job. I was alway afraid of working with people and especially in a professional setting. I had an internship a few months ago and it was one of the most difficult experiences, if not the most. I have atypical personality and it made the whole experience worse. Now, I’m having conflicting desires. I want to graduate but I don’t want to go through that again. That caused me to sabotage my GPA and university in general. Anyone has similar experience? How did you deal with it?
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Painful to live
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
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 October 22nd, 2022
...See more Lately, I’ve been having difficulties getting things done. I don’t feel there’s something wrong with my cognitive ability, but it feels like it’s becoming harder and harder to wake up in the morning and things seem unreal. I don’t feel particularly close to anyone. Tbh, I am not sure about anything socially, relationships and identity. Am I gonna just give up eventually and end my life.
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Headaches and Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 July 2nd, 2022
...See more Recently, I’ve been having anxiety attacks with terrible headaches. My taste for food has changed, I get strong cravings, and I don’t even feel pleasure satisfying them. It’s been horrible trying to manage those symptoms just to get to work. Anyone has experienced something like that? How did you handle it?
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Anxiety Attack
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 April 22nd, 2022
...See more I had an anxiety attach 2 days ago in the morning. I couldn’t go to work. It felt so overwhelming that I couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed or even keep thinking to get out of bed. I tried to control the anxious thoughts and it subsided for a while. However, it came back yesterday and it felt like I was so hopeless that I can’t even sort out my thoughts in one day; I have work to do and I can’t keep having those anxiety attacks in the morning. Has anyone been through this before? How to handle them? Any thoughts?
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SSRI and Sleep
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 April 2nd, 2022
...See more I increased my medication dose a few weeks ago. It helps me a lot get things done, but it disrupted my sleep. I’ve been sleeping up to 16 hours a day. It’s not easy to fall asleep, but once I fall, it’s hard to get up. It really bothers me. Anyone has been through something like this? How did ypu deal with it?
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Sleep disturbance?
Anxiety Support / by Mshadows
Last post
 April 8th, 2022
...See more I fell asleep at 2am and didn’t wake up until 4pm. I missed work I feel bad about it. The worst part is that I hadn’t heard the six alarms I have set. I don’t know how this is going to affect me at work. I am not sure what to say when my boss asks me why I didn’t come to work.
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