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...See more Hiya! So, I’m a newbie in this field. I’m actually still getting tested for it as we speak, although the psychiatrist already spoke between the lines he’s quite sure that this is accurate. I’m a 33 year old full time working mom of a 1,5 year old boy. Looking back on my life there’s been numerous times I could’ve been diagnosed for it, but as being a COPMI child i think they overlooked the situation in a way they ‘understood’ the behavior do to bad parenting. Of course, like many, the hole of depression I fell into began early 20’s where I got therapy for, and an additional CBT in group session. I thought the ‘problems’ I was still facing after that were just sole left overs from depression thinking you can’t get back to 100% yourself. And then I met my partner and eventually we got our son. Now that’s where the real problems began. We’ve had complications in pregnancy, during birth (ended in emergency-c section fully sedated) a cry baby and 2 serious hospital visits within the first 6 months. The bf couldn’t handle the crying and all that came, so I carried 90% of care. A newbie mom, not having a chance to even come to terms with it, traumatized from the start and ADHD amplifying the issue…. I seriously do not ever wish anyone that path from disaster. Over time with therapy we figured out the possibility of ADHD and with my son on the line (I was fighting CPS with every last bit of strength I had to keep my son) I turned a new corner, looked deep into the mirror acknowledging my failures and mistakes and started educating myself on any and every form of the disorder and psychology in it’s total form (still and will keep on learning) to slowly get out of the depression mainly on myself (I kept/keep forgetting my appointments with my therapist lmao) and am still trying to cope with all the exploded traits. I have to say that it’s a very hard and long road.. I’m now mainly focusing on how to manage the ADHD in order to start an additional EMDR therapy for the traumas endured since our sons birth, but at the same time the bf has separation anxiety with all the additional problems that’s pushing relationship problems and additional time for to educate myself on to understand him and be a supportive partner in hopes we can work through it, trying to understand my son and his behavior while I don’t even know who I am at this point. Sometimes.. idn. I’ll get there, luckily we finally know why the walls are closing in on me on a daily basis. But damn folks.. I’m a newbie ADHD with a long and hard road ahead.

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