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No715
5,340 M Moving Along
PathStep 343 Compassion hearts157 Forum posts610 Forum upvotes867 Current upvotes867 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2022 Member sinceMarch 26, 2017
Bio
Hello i'm No715.
I have Anxiety, depression, PTSD and deal with suicidal thoughts. I have been through a lot of trauma.

I do struggle a lot everyday, but everyday i try to focus on the good things,

I love dancing and listening to music, i love watching tv shows and movies and playing video games
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Trauma Anniversary
Trauma Support / by No715
Last post
September 20th, 2019
...See more Hi guys ! I hope you are feeling well. It's gonna be the Anniversary of a Trauma for me, pretty soon. I was wondering if you had some tips, things i can do that will make me feel better during that period. Thank you so much Take care
It keeps coming back
Trauma Support / by No715
Last post
August 24th, 2019
...See more I'm putting a lot of effort to fight anxiety, PTSD and depression. But it keeps coming back. I have a few happy days and then a lot of bad days. no matter how hard i try, how hard i fight, it keeps coming back. THe flashbacks, tha nightmares, the feeling of fear... it all comeback
I need advice
Relationship Stress / by No715
Last post
July 16th, 2017
...See more I'm sorry in advance, i might vent a little. So "O" and i have been bestfriends for 12 years now. Our friendship wasn't perfect but it was really good. And months ago i've realised something. I was talking to my mom about her, and my mom told me "you don't notice how she always tears you down everytime you talk to her". And that's true. I talk to my mom about her a lot and i've realised a lot of stuff. 1. She calls or texts me when she needs me only. When her friends don't want to hang out with her, she texts me. 2. I know sometimes i cancel plans but i've already explain to her that i have health problems (she knows how serious my problems are) and i don't know when i'm gonna be sick. Besides, i've done a lot of things with her. 3. She doesn't take my health problems seriously, once she asked me to work with her at Mcdonalds. And i told her that i can't because of my health. (I cannot have a "physical" job). And she told me "Yes right, like you do sports and you can't even work at mcdonals Grow up!". Honestly, even today, it still hurts. 4. When she tells me something like 'i 'm going to see "this singer" in concert i'm happy for her. Like really. Sometimes i don't really show it because i don't feel good, but i really feel happy for her. And recently i told her that i'm going to London by bus, and the bus would take 5 hours and stuff she told me "Yeah. Well MY bus to ITALIA took MORE THAN 10 HOURS so don't complain"... and i wasn't even complaining, 5. When i text she almost always reply me like " oh sorry I was at work, you know i'm working right ?, not everybody has time" .. 6. Once i wanted to show her a movie trailer, i told her that one of her favorite celebrities was in the movie and she told me "Come On i've already told you i hate this kind of movie" And three weeks later she texts me like "OMG have you seen this movie trailer with my favorite celebrity, my friend showed me, i can't wait to see it." It was the same video. The thing is, when we talk, we have a good moment. We do not agree on everything but still. I know i am not the perfect friend, i 'm flawed we all are. I know she has, family problems, health problems, but she acts like i don't. Sometimes, i even feel like she wanna starts a competition on who has the worst problems. Everytime i'm confessing to her, not complaining but just talking about my problems, she always come back to her, not to support me and to tell me that i am not alone, but so we can focus on her and only her. And i hate that. Like i said, i know i am flawed, i am probably not the best friend. When she talks about her problems i listen and i try to give advice. I tried to talk to her about that but she won't listen to me. What should i do ? (I'm really sorry for this long post ^^) Thanks in advance
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