Name: Just Paradox or Raven is fine

Age: 22

Pronouns: She/Her/They/Them:

My conditions: I was born with low (but not extremely low) functioning Autism, I have Severe Depression, Severe Generalized Anxiety, Paranoia, Audio and Visual Hallucinations, DID (previously known as Multiple Personalities), Severe PTSD to the point of Dissociation, Psychosis, Derealization and Depersonalization, Dyslexia, ADD, Sleep Insomnia, and a lot of physical health issues due to long term untreated mental illnesses

More About me: I am currently trying to start my own business(es) as a way to earn an income while being able to set my own schedule, also because I have tried many times to hold a regular job and I get burn out very quickly and it is nearly impossible for me to work any scheduled job for more than a few weeks, it would also give me the opportunity to provide those with Autism and other mental disorders a stable job that will work with them and allow them to make their own schedule with only a few loose baseline expectations such as a deadline or goal for each month. As an employer I would minimize my control over day-to-day lives because I understand that every day could be different from the last and there are highs and lows, this will hopefully encourage people to seek treatment and grow/get better the longer they stay an employee until they either spread their wings and fly to better horizons or switch to new branches of my business (for example if I decided to create a volunteer counseling system for my employees or start working with organizations that help people/animals in need). 

I involuntarily age regress for multiple reasons, being born with Autism I heard it is very common for those on the spectrum, another reason for my regression is due to severe consistent trauma throughout my entire childhood and into my adulthood, cruel and unusual punishment was common and I have suffered all 3 types of abuse throughout my life. If you are not comfortable with the age regression community (DDLG EXCLUDED I DO NOT CONDONE THE SEXUALIZATION OF AGE REGRESSION/MINORS/THOSE MENTALLY UNABLE TO KNOW RIGHT FROM WRONG) then you are, unfortunately, not the listener for me. My regression also has no affect on my ability to take things seriously or run a business, the adult and child parts of my life are completely seperate and my brain knows when it's time to "be the adult" in a situation. 

I have many interests and passions ranging from art and music to game development and advanced sciences, and most things in between. 

I am not religious however I relate, for the most part, to the ideology of Buddhism and what it stands for.

Why am I here?

I would like to find a long term listener who can relate to some/most of my disorders and who is very confidential. I have specific problems that I don't know how to handle and a lot of them can only be treated by a licensed psychiatrist/psychologist which tends to be very expensive. Until the day I can afford more "advanced" therapy I feel like the best thing for me would be a more down to Earth approach.

What type of listener would be best for me?

I feel more comfortable talking with someone who is laid back but also takes themselves and myself seriously, someone who is non-biased but unafraid to state what helped them through similar problems, logic and feeling must be in equilibrium or close to it in order to see both sides of a situation, they would have a lot of empathy/sympathy, willing to read long paragraphs to understand the problem, talk for extended periods of time (so a lot of free time), and who actually wants to help knowing that we cannot solve the problems yet (just having someone to vent to can change everything). Clearly I don't expect all or most of these wishes to be fulfilled, they are just what I believe will help my current situation, however a few are essential such as confidentiality, taking them and myself seriously, relating to some of my disorders, and the ability/willingness to read long messages/have lengthy conversations.