Hi. Im sure I will be adding to this as time passes. I'm a mom in her 30's though my 17 year old self still resides in me. The chaotic voices within me, have become comforting though im aware they keep me from progressing to be thebest me, to be the best parent for my daughter. Accepting that i, and all that is me, is not as important to those i surround myself with. (Family members, friends) i instead feed the facade of being okay, by always being there whenever i can for them. If i offer them advice, an ear to listen to or anything that makes them believe im "okay" enough to keep in their lives, then i am happy. The belief that i truly have left no impact big enough to my loved ones, that if i suddenly poofed out of existence, i dont believe anyone would notice. BUT, my 9 year old daughter...is truly everything to me. And i try everyday to be the person i wish i had with her. What i feel inside my head, I NEVER want her to experience. I...have alot buried deep inside me that i add to constantly. And maybe a good talk will help/