I love the Lord. I like to read & watch Westerns. I love the book "Only Love Today" by Rachel Macy Stafford. I have a son who died on 3/15/11 he was 5 years old when he died. And I have one surviving child/son who is 14 years old. I love to sing, belly dance in my living room, swim & I love the outdoors. But I struggle with depression, anxiety, complex PTSD, grief & sometimes panic attacks. Normal people would do all the things I listed at the top of this paragraph. But I struggle to get out of bed. And I don't know what normal is anymore. I love snap chat & apps where you can alter your skin/looks. Because then I can pretend to be normal through a picture. And I don't keep friends. And I understand why. It's very depressing associating with someone like me. Misery loves company!!!