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...See more I was 10 when an old man abused me in bus, his hand move from my thighs, he opened my skirt slowly that reach my sex, and I was just froze, I keep silent when he do that, he keep asking me about, my name, school, my family, what time I usually ride the bus, and I just stupidity answer all of his question. There's someone beside me, but he pretend didn't see any of this. I just keep silent, until I arrived at home, and I talk to my father, but he didn't do anything about it, neither my mother, and then tomorrow come, I forget about any of this, pretend that nothing happens. I was 15 when I lost my virginity, by someone I meet in social media, and I regret but I do it again with my boyfriend, and with someone else, then I stop. I was 17 when I stop to had a boyfriend, mostly because I feel disgust of my self, I hate myself with meaningless thing that I did. I feel disgusting, and the impact was I become ignorance with people, I don't keep relationship with others, once I know them, then one day I will run from them, I don't trust people anymore, I usually forget everything that's happened, and tomorrow come it will be just gonna fine day like yesterday. I feel ashamed, worthless, and disgusting. I'm not good, for others that's why I keep the distance from others, shut myself from having a relationship. I'm afraid they will leave me......

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