Eccentric enigmatic contradiction. These are words I would use to define myself. I am different. I try to keep positive things, thoughts and people in my life at all times. I will be the one making jokes during a thunderstorm. Animals and music are my therapy. I attempt to do what is right even if it costs me everything I worked hard for in life. I want to be in love with someone who bonds with me like my arm has from birth. I want to be helpful. My heart wants to spread joy and love but is soft and easily broken. This seems to attract abusive, suffering, manipulative people. So I have grown to fear human touch and I trust nobody. I have opened my heart to many people and allowed them to bring me down with them. Materialistic things are not my biggest desire however the less I spend the more I am in debt to someone else. Giving is what I want to do but things are to often taken leaving me nothing behind to cover my own needs. Often I have to become a lion of a woman, defending myself, my child and my life. People who do not know me well don't know how to take me. They might take me as weak minded at first due to my soft nature. Then they are taken back by my ability to rise above and fight for myself. People who know me well love me. I have many close friends. More now than ever in my life. This I am thankful for. Its easier being around people who don't expect you to explain yourself.