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Tt1024
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Why do I resort to doing this
Relationship Stress / by Tt1024
Last post
 August 7th, 2018
...See more when my husband of 9 years asked for a divorce, we had our issues and it wasnt perfect But I was obviously upset. The sadness and trying to get him to. Change his mind lasted about 3 weeks then I quickly turned to anger and said screw it. I joined dating sites and hooked up with several random people. I really didnt care, I thought if he didnt want me I would find as many men as I could that did want me. I went a little crazy so to speak and it was very out of character for me because i managed to be faithful to him during our 11 years together even though I never felt like he was attracted to me or that he loved me. Fast forward to now when I met a man 7 months ago but he made me change my ways I deleted all dating sites and wanted to pursue a relationship with him exclusively. (See my other post for more on this) but I fell in love hard for him just to discover recently he hasnt been faithful during our relationship we broke up and the first night that he left I found myself resorting to my previous ways i found myself surfing dating sites looking for a guy to meet..I looked up a guy I used to meet for sex and I want to his place, I couldnt do anything with him because I couldnt get my bf off my mind but the point is I knew what I was going there for and I thought it would help me get over him.. Why do I resort to doing this when Im hurt. I feel it has to do with rejection and abandonment issues I just dont know how to fix myself, or why I act this way. I
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Just found out my boyfriend of 7 months is a serial cheater
Relationship Stress / by Tt1024
Last post
 August 2nd, 2018
...See more My hearts broken, I feel betrayed, I feel like a complete moron for not seeing that this was happening but I love him so much that Im willing to forgive him. He says he needs help figuring out whats going on with him and he is going to find a therapist to fix himself. I know he cares about me and hes sorry for what hes done. I feel like if he cared enough to tell me the truth about everything that maybe this is fixable. I just found out yesterday and I havent been able to eat, or stop crying. I feel worthless and as upset as I am for what hes done I still love him and want him in my life. We decided this morning to take a break while he tries to get some help for whatever is going on with him mentally, watching him walk out the door with his bag ripped my heart out. I keep asking myself why me, I give love away so easily and I love deep Im so loyal and caring and he swears its not me, and anything that Im doing or not doing, he admits that i do a lot for him and he knows I love him. He says Im everything hes ever wanted in a woman but theres this compulsion to chase other woman, he says he enjoys the chase. I just hope this is fixable because the pain Im feeling now for being betrayed is nothing compared to the pain I felt when he left, and if I never see him again I feel like I cant survive this.
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