Hi, my name is Kyra/Moka(My online name) and I am Transgender. I prefer female pronouns thank you x

I am 25 years old, 26 in January and I am seeing a doctor soon about my gender dysphoria. I have always suppressed these feelings ever since I was about 5-6 years old and it has built up over the years.

I have always thought of being a girl growing up, it seemed a lot better than being a boy in my opinion but it was only a wish I had, never thought it could happen though. Around when I was in my teens the feeling became stronger and I had a desire to dress but again I suppressed it as I thought it was only a passing thought. When I was about 17/18 I finally bought makeup for the first time. It was short lived as my mother found out soon after and sent me to a therapist and thought I was crazy. I lied to the therapist because I hated what it was doing to my mother and I just wanted her to be happy again, therefore I sacrificed my own happiness for her.

Couple years later I am living with my fiance (girlfriend at the time) and I tell her I enjoy crossdressing and she helped me out with getting some clothes, I felt happy but not completely happy. A few years later, to today in fact I am coming to terms with the highly possible theory that I am transgender, My fiance said she would support me but it will take time. We intend to have children and get married still which makes me happy.

As for me myself I am a gamer girl, currently into my PS4 and 3DS. I enjoy the gothic style of clothing/makeup I need to get better at it though. My fastest time for makeup is 30 mins, before it was an hour so I am pretty happy about that. Oh and I do not smoke, as I have lost too many people through that.

Anyways I am friendly and willing to listen to anything really, I am not too great with advice but i'll try to help in anyway x.

Thanks for reading I hope it wasn't too boring!